Bit of a long post- but here we go! For the last month or so, my anxiety and panic attacks have become very severe. I've always had anxiety but it has never affected my life NEAR as much as it has now. Every day I'm struggling. I'm always worried that something bad is happening with my body, especially my heart. I'm constantly checking my heart rate, googling my symptoms, and overall just obsessing about it. I have heart palpitations (heart flutter and increased heart rate) and they scare me every time. Along with those, I have dizziness, shortness of breath, sometimes tingly sensations in my hands and legs, nausea, surreal sensations, and just overall panic. When this happens I tend to pace and try to distract myself from my racing thoughts and try to calm down. Which sometimes helps. But I'm just scared. My anxiety got so bad, that I actually went to the hospital. They did an EKG, blood test, and chest X-RAY, along with a few other things to try to figure this whole situation out. Everything came back normal (of course) except for the fact that I'm anemic. But that didn't kick the feeling that something was wrong with me. I felt as though they could have missed something, and that I need more tests done because my symptoms feel so real. I'm worried I'll go into cardiac arrest or something because that's just how intense my thoughts are! I'm paranoid that my heart is weak. I just want to feel normal again. This anxiety and panic has made it so hard to do everyday things which makes me stressed and I cry because I feel so helpless. I'm 21, and I have got a lot to do but it's so hard to even go grocery shopping. I also don't have the most supportive boyfriend during this time. He doesn't understand how I could be feeling such crazy things when all of my tests came back normal. All of which causes more stress on me. The thing is, 3 months ago my grandfather who was my everything and who I lived with my entire life passed away unexpectedly. The first month after his death, I couldnt talk about it, couldnt cry about it, couldnt look at his pictures, just pretty much denying it. The next month I started accepting it, and finally crying about it, but also starting to get anxiety symptoms. Then one morning after some heavy drinking I had a horrible panic attack that lasted 2 weeks! Almost nonstop anxiety. I finally learned how to not have panic attacks constantly but its still not enough to go about my everyday life. This has destroyed me. But dealing with this loss of one of my favorite people and this anxiety is almost unbearable. I just need some guidance on what to do. Thank you for your time.