More weight, more anxiety: Responses so very appreciated

[Matticus1983]

Welp I've been on a med for a year and a half now and unfortunately have gained about 30 lbs. I used to be so active but now I'm scared of being too active because of my weight; ie: BP worries, stroke worries, heart attack worries you name it. Here's the kicker; my job requires me to climb ladders every day all day long and I stay active very active during those times. On my way home I'm usually drained and my face is hot to the touch like my BP is up. I'm 39 weigh 305 6'2" about 28% body fat, I used to lift weights!! Generally, I'm not looked at as being overweight but just big, and bulky but so very bloated from all the damn carbs and sugar I eat.
Now here's my issue: I worry constantly I'm gonna stroke out, lifting or pulling too much weight or pushing myself too hard, when no more than two years ago I was shrugging 300 lbs and curling 100lbs. My health anxiety has gone through the roof since I gained all this weight. I literally get too scared to go out in the fields by myself because I'm afraid I won't make it back. I'm scared to be alone doing the things I once enjoyed. It's easy to say lose weight but when a drug works against your body, and you can't get off it cause it helps, it makes it almost impossible! I don't enjoy hunting like I once did cause I'm scared my body won't take the stress etc. I don't like being alone in my garage anymore. I'm so fixated on my BP being high cause it's high every time I'm in the Dr.s office. (I don't like the blood pressure cuff). I get anxious!!! The last reading was 140/90 at the docs office. They get in such a hurry to put you on BP meds when they don't realize it may only happen when you get nervous. The good news though to be as big of a guy as I am my cholesterol and everything else blood-wise are good. I'm afraid the doc is correct in diagnosing me with high BP but I do not want to take another med on top of the cocktail I'm already on. Again what's ironic is I climb ladders almost every day, and seldom get so anxious I can't. I do get worn out sometimes and have to take a few day's rests. I feel like these fears are taking my life away! I used to be so active and realized its just anxiety, its just anxiety but now they throw in a BP thing and I no longer have the piece of mind I did. Sometimes I get pressure in my ears when I stand up from sitting a long time. Medication-related who knows? I just want to enjoy life again. Thanks guys

 

[VNT89]

I read your experiences a lot, because I red an article you wrote once about just being so open with explaining the history of your anxiety, and won’t ever forget how much it so closely resembled my experiences, now I’ve read this post, I realise this is exactly how I feel , it’s literally crazy to me how similar the symptoms you detail on this forum are to my own … so a year ago I quit the gym, and back then I was running ALOT, I felt mega fit, but felt putting myself under such pressure to go running, made my anxiety worse, so I stopped, and only very infrequently run now, it’s been a year and I’ve put a few Kgs on, and feel now because I’ve been stressed a lot recently, I get palpitations and I couldn’t handle fitness anymore, because of my weight, and fear for being alone , it’s mad dude. It has to be purely down to anxiety.

 

[Bry]

I’ve felt this way before and I would go walking in areas where there were people around. Might try it, even if you have to drive to a park or shopping mall

 

[Sweet T]

I hear ya.

 

[Izthewiz]

Have you ever had your testosterone checked ?
I am a male also and suffered from low t unknown to me got blood work done and started
taking injectable testosterone and no longer suffer from anxiety also weight went down.