Mom might have put me in danger.

[Grace360]

So my mom is pretty sure she has it, even though she won't go to the doctors for it. She doesn't trust them as far as the Covid thing. I think her irresponsibility may have gotten me in trouble. Yesterday I could hear my mom wheezing a bit and stuff but I still let her hang out. We decorated the tree, she cooked, ect ect. Side hugs only. I woke up this morning feeling like I got hit with a ton of bricks. Usually I just have allergies, all year round. Stuffy and runny and stuff. This morning my nose was straight up BLOCKED. Still is. Using so much tissue, and obviously I feel sick. I do have a Covid test scheduled for tomorrow. I'm still so so scared. So scared I feel panic attacks coming on. The media did a good job of fear mongering because the one thing I keep thinking about is that little girl who died of covid not even 24 hours after she left the hospital. And of course I have a test tomorrow but what if its not in time? I'm just a ball of nerves and anxiety right now.. I hate it and I'm so worried.
Update I just had an intense panic attack from it, coming down from it. And I still feel terrible. Help, please. This is gonna worry me all day.

 

[alwaysworried]

I'm so sorry you're feeling sick, and having a panic attack on top of that...no fun.
I'd look at it this way: there's nothing you can do about it now. You have a test scheduled, you'll soon be able to find out if you have it. For now all you can do is try to rest, stay hydrated, just give your body time to fight off whatever you have. Remember - it's also cold and flu season, both of which have very similar symptoms to Covid. It might turn out to be nothing! And if it is Covid...you're young, I don't know if you have any pre-existing conditions but your body is capable of much more than you give it credit for. I know there's a lot of scary stories in the news, but it's because they are news-worthy stories! We hear much more about the serious cases than we do about people who have had Covid and recovered fine.
I can't imagine how you're feeling right now, I know what it's like to get fixated on a single thought. Just know that you've done the responsible thing and gotten a test scheduled, and that's all you can do for now. Try to give your body and mind some care. You'll get the test tomorrow, and then you can make your next plan of action once you get the results back. Hoping you get some good news!