AnxiousAlways
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I’m not really sure if this is the right place to post this, but whenever I try to google what I’m feeling OCD always pops up. I dont think I have OCD but I think I have something like it? I get very anxious and uncomfortable when colours don’t match. It’s to the point where I basically only wear black, white and/or grey clothes so that no matter what I always match the room I’m in. I know I sound crazy.. if I could, my whole house would be white walls, white floors, and black furniture. But anyway, in the house I’m renting we can’t paint any of the walls except in the basement. They said they don’t care what we do to the basement, so that’s my haven. And you guessed it. I painted the walls and the floor white. I will literally do anything I possibly can to fix colours so that they’re gone or changed to white/black. I hate going upstairs because it’s wood floors and like brown walls and the brown colour on the wall clashes with the brown wood on the floor and DRIVES ME CRAZY. ALSO pause for a moment, I’m super bad at like organizing my thoughts and writing good things so this whole paragraph is probably going to be all over the place but I just want to explain everything I’m feeling. Anywaaaay, I have dark red curtains on my windows in the basement (literally the only coloured thing in there) and just that one colored thing prevents me from wearing any pinks, or purples because IT DOESNT MATCH THE RED. I hate that I’m like that and don’t want to be like this but I can’t help it. I go to grab a pink shirt out of my closet and my brain just pictures the pink with the red curtains and it just straight up gives me anxiety and like I can’t even explain the feelings it gives me just thinking about it. Same way if I had other colours in the room with the red curtains, I’d have anxiety all the time unless I got rid of the colors. What could this possibly be???? Is this some type of OCD? I’ve been looking at chromophobia but I’m not scared of colours.. I google “anxiety when colors don’t match” and a bunch of OCD arrives come up. It doesn’t seem like it’s serious but it honestly takes over my life at some points and I’m so sick of it. Anyone else feel something along these lines?
