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Lump. Bump. Spot. Pain.

Templar

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Lump, bump, spot and pain. How many times have one or more of these four little words sucked the joy out of my life ? These four words have caused me enough time on medical websites looking up symptoms and treatments, that I'm pretty sure I could be an ENT, Dermatologist or Oncologist if I just made time to take the board exams. On the other hand, I'm a good guy to have around if you're concerned about one of the four words, because I can quickly diagnose whatever you have...lol. Also, if you need a blood pressure cuff, thermometer or magnifying mirror....I'm your guy.:) These four words can easily dominate my day by having me checking and re-checking that lump, bump or spot every 5 minutes, because of course that's enough time for it to change from the last inspection ! Over the last 20 years I've had 17 different types of cancer and a couple rare diseases. How is it possible that I'm still alive ??? Well, the answer is I have health anxiety. Why and when it started I'm really not sure. What I do know is that at times it's not bad, and at other times the smallest abdominal pain has me lamenting my ultimate demise from colon cancer and wondering what it's like to be in hospice care. How many times have I vowed not to google a symptom, then after a day or two I give in to my temptation...but only on the Mayo Clinic website, because they wouldn't give me false information ! LOLOLOL.....Well, the fact of the matter is no matter what kind of mental exercises, breathing techniques or therapy I can partake in, I'm always going to have this. My brain is just wired that way. So what to do ? Well, like any other problem you have to just face it head on, make fun of yourself at times for being such a freak and move on with your life. For me it's not necessarily the fact that I'm going to die, it's just that I don't want a lingering, wasting away kind of death. The fact is we are all going to die. So at least for today let's all take a vacation from our anxieties and replace the words lump, bump, spot and pain with four different words...Fun. Family. Friends and Joy. Have a great day everyone and remember when channel-surfing DO NOT watch "Mystery Diagnosis"....:p
 

Jgriffin

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Lump, bump, spot and pain. How many times have one or more of these four little words sucked the joy out of my life ? These four words have caused me enough time on medical websites looking up symptoms and treatments, that I'm pretty sure I could be an ENT, Dermatologist or Oncologist if I just made time to take the board exams. On the other hand, I'm a good guy to have around if you're concerned about one of the four words, because I can quickly diagnose whatever you have...lol. Also, if you need a blood pressure cuff, thermometer or magnifying mirror....I'm your guy.:) These four words can easily dominate my day by having me checking and re-checking that lump, bump or spot every 5 minutes, because of course that's enough time for it to change from the last inspection ! Over the last 20 years I've had 17 different types of cancer and a couple rare diseases. How is it possible that I'm still alive ??? Well, the answer is I have health anxiety. Why and when it started I'm really not sure. What I do know is that at times it's not bad, and at other times the smallest abdominal pain has me lamenting my ultimate demise from colon cancer and wondering what it's like to be in hospice care. How many times have I vowed not to google a symptom, then after a day or two I give in to my temptation...but only on the Mayo Clinic website, because they wouldn't give me false information ! LOLOLOL.....Well, the fact of the matter is no matter what kind of mental exercises, breathing techniques or therapy I can partake in, I'm always going to have this. My brain is just wired that way. So what to do ? Well, like any other problem you have to just face it head on, make fun of yourself at times for being such a freak and move on with your life. For me it's not necessarily the fact that I'm going to die, it's just that I don't want a lingering, wasting away kind of death. The fact is we are all going to die. So at least for today let's all take a vacation from our anxieties and replace the words lump, bump, spot and pain with four different words...Fun. Family. Friends and Joy. Have a great day everyone and remember when channel-surfing DO NOT watch "Mystery Diagnosis"....:p
Wonderful post and very encouraging. I think you described most of us accurately. I use to love mystery diagnosis and now I can't. I laughed tremendously when I read that. Thank you for a great start to the day. May you all find peace and joy in the small things. We are on this Earth but a moment. Make the best of it
 

Bobnnat

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You describe the life of a HA sufferer to a "T". Your attitude is great; I know i'm a freak and if I didn't, my wife reminds me when I go through this (generally in a loving sort of way...sort of). All I would add is try to find a GP who:

1) understands your HA
2) is willing to see you knowing that
3) rather than suffer, see that doctor when the panic first sets in (rather than Google if possible)
4) trust your doctor; once she/he tells you it's not serious, believe it and drop it

I don't know if determining why you developed HA does any good. I saw a psychiatrist and we discussed whether to pursue that. He asked me what would change if I, after many months had an "ah ha" moment and found out why? Nothing of course. I did learn generally when there's an issue of perceived abandonment I'm vulnerable. Knowing you're at risk at a given point seems even more stressful, as generally you cannot eliminate the issues that caused the HA in the first place.
 

Kadenongers

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This is awesome. Everything I feel I assume it’s cancer or any other bad disease. I hate living my life in fear. This post is great encouragement
 

MakUSA

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Ha ha ha ha, awesome post, we all need to look the same way.

Cheers and carry on with your positive attitude.
 
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