Knew I wasn't worthy

[Kelculator]

I am just not thinking straight now. This came out of nowhere. I am suddenly really down and unhappy now, thinking about life, and have no motivation of doing anything.
I see members of this site as family, really, but now I realize how distant i am from all of you. I don't truly belong here, it seems like. Heck, i don't belong anywhere. I even went as far to convince myself no one here cares, as barely anyone wanted to help me when I was feeling upset.( this is not true, my logical side tells me, but you know. I'm sorry.)
I feel so immature and stupid and such a waste of space. Though I am not going to make that mistake of hurting myself, as i know i am being depressed, like some teenage "blues", I really truly need some encouragement now. Please.

 

[Rinka]

Oh love.
Please don’t give up.
You are an important member here and an important person.
Those feelings you describe are temporary. To be honest I’m not in the best of places myself either at the moment. What gets me through this is the knowledge that it’s just temporary. Also going away for this week will help.
I’m sure that you will feel better soon.
Maybe you can take some time off and drive somewhere?
This helps me a lot.

 

[janemariesayed]

I am just not thinking straight now. This came out of nowhere. I am suddenly really down and unhappy now, thinking about life, and have no motivation of doing anything.
I see members of this site as family, really, but now I realize how distant i am from all of you. I don't truly belong here, it seems like. Heck, i don't belong anywhere. I even went as far to convince myself no one here cares, as barely anyone wanted to help me when I was feeling upset.( this is not true, my logical side tells me, but you know. I'm sorry.)
I feel so immature and stupid and such a waste of space. Though I am not going to make that mistake of hurting myself, as i know i am being depressed, like some teenage "blues", I really truly need some encouragement now. Please.

Hey, hey! Read your message! The whole of it says how you do really belong here. Okay, this is online but thanks to the universe at least there is a place with real people who care. You have posted many times on here and you are well known so I really think you would be missed. So please don't go. The support you give others has given strength to them. Especially when they read your posts they know that they are not alone. As you are not alone. Sending you hugs Kelculator.

 

[JCP]

Hope you feel better soon @Kelculator.

 

[Kelculator]

Thank you guys. I am trying my best to keep my head up high.

 

[Kelculator]

Oh love.
Please don’t give up.
You are an important member here and an important person.
Those feelings you describe are temporary. To be honest I’m not in the best of places myself either at the moment. What gets me through this is the knowledge that it’s just temporary. Also going away for this week will help.
I’m sure that you will feel better soon.
Maybe you can take some time off and drive somewhere?
This helps me a lot.

I wish, but I'm too young to drive, at least in my country (lol). I have busy days, mostly going to school and completing stuff, EVERYTHING is about studying at my school. But I guess I can try to take some time off--I'd just be sitting here procrastinating anyways.

 

[Kelculator]

Hey, hey! Read your message! The whole of it says how you do really belong here. Okay, this is online but thanks to the universe at least there is a place with real people who care. You have posted many times on here and you are well known so I really think you would be missed. So please don't go. The support you give others has given strength to them. Especially when they read your posts they know that they are not alone. As you are not alone. Sending you hugs Kelculator.

I would never imagine people describing me as well-known... Thank you. Thanks for the hug. I really needed it.

 

[janemariesayed]

I would never imagine people describing me as well-known... Thank you. Thanks for the hug. I really needed it.

Well, yes, you see? You are well known and loved. So chin up and feel good about yourself. This dark time will pass soon enough.

 

[Steven]

Kelculator,
I just joined this community fairly recently but you’ve already really helped me a lot through your replies to my posts! So i definetely appreciate you being here!

 

[janemariesayed]

I would never imagine people describing me as well-known... Thank you. Thanks for the hug. I really needed it.

How are you feeling today? Any better?

 

[Kelculator]

How are you feeling today? Any better?

Yeah, not a lot better, but I am certainly in a better mood. Thank you for checking up on me, that was really sweet.

 

[Kelculator]

Kelculator,
I just joined this community fairly recently but you’ve already really helped me a lot through your replies to my posts! So i definetely appreciate you being here!

Thank you. I know I say it all the time, but it really means a lot.

 

[janemariesayed]

Yeah, not a lot better, but I am certainly in a better mood. Thank you for checking up on me, that was really sweet.

You are always welcome! We care here.

 

[Concernedgal]

Feeling this way is normal when your depressed. Depression is just full of pain and self hate..believe me. .. this is my life. But, when I feel this way ..I remember that God created me and that' what makes me perfect and you are too. You are perfect in the eyes of the Lord . I'mean sorry if I haven't been helpful lately..I haven't really been doing well lately. I just haven't felt like doing anything. But, I promise you and everyone here that I will be around more. Please don' t hesitate to talk to me 1on1 .. I will do my very best to be a better supporter.

 

[Kelculator]

Feeling this way is normal when your depressed. Depression is just full of pain and self hate..believe me. .. this is my life. But, when I feel this way ..I remember that God created me and that' what makes me perfect and you are too. You are perfect in the eyes of the Lord . I'mean sorry if I haven't been helpful lately..I haven't really been doing well lately. I just haven't felt like doing anything. But, I promise you and everyone here that I will be around more. Please don' t hesitate to talk to me 1on1 .. I will do my very best to be a better supporter.

Thank you so much for showing me show much concern and care. I believe God created me for a reason too. I think I am feeling a bit better now. Perhaps I just feel so trapped by my city's horrible education system, and how i cannot truly be myself and do what I truly want for years to come. But I am regaining strength now. I hope you are alright... You can talk to be always too. You have always been so helpful and we all care about you a lot. Is everything alright?

 

[Concernedgal]

We all love each other here and know what you are going through. So you have a problem. .we will always be here.