Just looking for someone to talk to

[LC06]

Hi
This is my first time doing anything like this but it’s neccessary because I feel Like I have no one to turn to. I don’t want to burden my family with my problems and I’m too embarrassed to to tell my fairly new boyfriend and friends. I really feel like anxiety is taking over my life. I have social anxiety and GAD, I avoid going into shops sometimes or ordering take away food on my own because it makes me so anxious. I’m an English teacher working abroad and I pushed myself out of my comfort zone to try to steer my life on a better direction but the anxiety is trying to make me fail in my quest for a normal life. Strange but I don’t get anxiety when I teach, because it’s my passsion.
I get very anxious when I have to have a meal out with people because I feel like they’re watching me eat. I’m petit so I guess I think people are judging me because I’m so small. It makes me paranoid. My working hours sometimes don’t allow for me to have meals at the time I wish ( Im paranoid that if I don’t eat at a certain time, I will pass out or faint) then I get nausea in my stomach and the cycle continues.
Is there anyone out there who has a similar experience? It doesn’t matter if not, I’m just happy to speak to anyone or be here for someone if they’re going through a difficult time. You’re not Alone.

 

[Rinka]

Welcome @LC06 to our forum.
Please feel free to share with us as much as you feel comfortable.
It must be hard for you to live abroad from the things and people you know.
I know from my experience, that shortly after I moved to London from Germany, that my GAD flared up pretty badly.
I myself had also difficulties eating in front of people, especially my back then new boyfriend. We had our first date and we’re eating pizza. I was so embarrassed and anxious that I could not eat and only had less them half of my pizza. Luckily my boyfriend finished it off.
Later on in our relationship, I told him about this and he felt sad that I felt so anxious.
Believe me you are not alone.
We are all here to support each other.

 

[janemariesayed]

You are very welcome here and you always have us to turn to. The close people to you probably realise anyway as they will see you often and know your normal behaviour. You seem to have low blood sugar when you don't eat for a while. Try putting a snack bar in your bag for 'just in case'. All you need is food when you feel like that, so eat something however small it is. Then get to a meal as soon as you can. You will not pass out if you follow that rule. I have low blood sugar and that is how I deal with it when I get hungry. I know what to do quickly now. I have a tub of peanuts next to my desk so if I feel like that I have something to grab quickly then I go and get food.

Eating in front of people, don't let them get to you. They are not watching you. It's not normal to watch somebody eat, and it is rude. It is bad behaviour so you have the right to say to them 'You okay? Do you want my food?' and then hand them your plate!

That should cause a reaction from them!

 

[Matthewtweedie]

Hi, You have a social anxiety, meditation and exercise are the best source to deal with social fear. Or you can try out hypnosis sessions it also very beneficial to heal social fear, and it helps to build confidence by vanishing negative thoughts.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Hi
This is my first time doing anything like this but it’s neccessary because I feel Like I have no one to turn to. I don’t want to burden my family with my problems and I’m too embarrassed to to tell my fairly new boyfriend and friends. I really feel like anxiety is taking over my life. I have social anxiety and GAD, I avoid going into shops sometimes or ordering take away food on my own because it makes me so anxious. I’m an English teacher working abroad and I pushed myself out of my comfort zone to try to steer my life on a better direction but the anxiety is trying to make me fail in my quest for a normal life. Strange but I don’t get anxiety when I teach, because it’s my passsion.
I get very anxious when I have to have a meal out with people because I feel like they’re watching me eat. I’m petit so I guess I think people are judging me because I’m so small. It makes me paranoid. My working hours sometimes don’t allow for me to have meals at the time I wish ( Im paranoid that if I don’t eat at a certain time, I will pass out or faint) then I get nausea in my stomach and the cycle continues.
Is there anyone out there who has a similar experience? It doesn’t matter if not, I’m just happy to speak to anyone or be here for someone if they’re going through a difficult time. You’re not Alone.

Welcome to the family.I hear what you are saying because I have anxieties everyday of my life,they can be so bad at times all that I can do is lay down all day and sleep if I can.For me it seems like the only time I am not anxious is when I am sleeping.I get health anxieties,I worry about everything.I have had this illness now for over 40 years and to be honest it is making me sick.Along with the anxieties I do get the awful panic attacks,plus I have depression,bipolar and a mood disorder so as you can see I am a mess.Plus I have agoraphobia which makes i hard for me to go out.