Just got in some legal troubles over 5 year old things

[Shreddykrugaer]

My panic and anxiety is in full force its like a totally new and uncontrollable dread. Its like ive never felt these symptoms but i have the chest pain the 90 + pulse sweaty palms light headedness unconquerable fear just randomly I feel my pulse slow then speed up then start to get controlled ive been checking my pulse and oxygen none stop burping and turning my head looking at every movement I never felt like this is what ut feels like but i know i have before i feel like my life is coming to a dark and unfulfilled end and im having no luck for the past week controlling it its like its the first time all over again and my support group is not an option right now and all my tactics seem to have no effect especially when i do do breathing exersices it almost reminds me that their is something wrong i slept 5 hours last night and today started off better but then my chest started getting heavy and my breathing got stripped from my lungs and i have no one i can talk to at the moment i feel like i wont make it to my drs appointment on the 19th i feel hopeless ive tried everything but this feeling comes back stronger then ever like i dont know the feeling or it wont ever truly go away hopfully someone can relate.

 

[Cuchculan]

Every now and again it likes to let you know it is still around. My anxiety began 30 years ago. This year I was hit the worst ever. Shows how it can work. Depending on our present day situation and other things going on in our lives. They are what we have to look at. What is currently going on and how can we make things different to help improve how we feel. Answer might be simple in some cases. For others it might be harder. But think of times you felt good? I am sure you have had better times. Feed off of that. Remember those times. That will show you that you have had good times and that you still can. May seem like one big long battle. Case of are you a fighter or not? Fight to get back to some good rimes. It will be worth the effort. Bad days happen to us all. Even bad months. That does not mean every month or even week has to be as bad. Hence it does change every so often. Case of never saying never.

 

[Shreddykrugaer]

Every now and again it likes to let you know it is still around. My anxiety began 30 years ago. This year I was hit the worst ever. Shows how it can work. Depending on our present day situation and other things going on in our lives. They are what we have to look at. What is currently going on and how can we make things different to help improve how we feel. Answer might be simple in some cases. For others it might be harder. But think of times you felt good? I am sure you have had better times. Feed off of that. Remember those times. That will show you that you have had good times and that you still can. May seem like one big long battle. Case of are you a fighter or not? Fight to get back to some good rimes. It will be worth the effort. Bad days happen to us all. Even bad months. That does not mean every month or even week has to be as bad. Hence it does change every so often. Case of never saying never.

Its just so insane how this comes back stronger more fierce then ever its like i dont remember it at all or the feeling i guess i was really doing well there for a few months then last night all night i kept waking up confused and then today its been wreaking havoc on me from hours ago and I feel like any second a bad panic will happen and I dont know what to do about it its like i forgot every way to cope or even what excatly i did then besides just bearly scrap by with my life

 

[Cuchculan]

Hop onto you tube and watch a few videos. Keep the mind busy. Even a relaxation video. Just get the whole breathing thing right again. In through the nose and out through the mouth. It still works. Just having a tough time of it is all. They do happen. Make us want to throw in the towel. But we never ever do. We seem to always fight on. Because we are fighters. Easier to quit. But we never do that. I am sure you have gotten over things before. I always think this time was worst than the last. But was it really, or is that just my mind telling me that? Keep yourself busy. That would be the main thing to do.

 

[Shreddykrugaer]

Yeah ive always gotten over things and wprked through it and i know at the yiem it always seemed worse then it really was but im 100 percent convinced this is worse then anything ive ever been through i hope the panic and anxiety subsidies i dont know if id ever wish this on anyone

 

[AnxiousBean]

How are you doing today? Any better?

 

[Shreddykrugaer]

How are you doing today? Any better?

Thank you for asking yeah i feel a bit better im just trying to make it to Monday to see my gp and go from there I was havign a rough night i felt pain in my upper back but ive pretty much come to the conclusion that it could literally be almost anything so could chest pain from pinched nerves to spin injury to heart failure to pneumonia to blood clouts and its pretty hard to tell unless im dying or i see the doctor witch is terrifying in its own way cause im terrified of neil degrass is comment on the shootings last week "500 people die of misdiagnosed health problems." Things are bleak and im not helping myself by stressing over it trying to prevent something from happening at least health wise i eat healthy i exersice regularly i work out for the most part 4 times a week so if im going to keel over and die I at least tried my best to prevent it life is unfair and being healthy doesnt make that less of a truth

 

[Panxiety]

I've been having a rough month as well, after years of thinking I have this under control.

Also have the healthy lifestyle thing in full swing, mostly motivated by anxiety--so I guess it's not all bad.

Although can't help but think lately that life is ironic and something bad is going to happen to me despite all my efforts and being in better shape than most people I know. What a terrible mindset.

Can't wait for this round of anxiety to be completely gone. Been having some better days lately, but it's still lingering.

Hang in there. We've got this.

 

[Shreddykrugaer]

I've been having a rough month as well, after years of thinking I have this under control.

Also have the healthy lifestyle thing in full swing, mostly motivated by anxiety--so I guess it's not all bad.

Although can't help but think lately that life is ironic and something bad is going to happen to me despite all my efforts and being in better shape than most people I know. What a terrible mindset.

Can't wait for this round of anxiety to be completely gone. Been having some better days lately, but it's still lingering.

Hang in there. We've got this.

Excatly this is such a dumb thing to struggle with when theres babies with cancer that are bearly old enough to talk and im sitting here letting my mind olay tricks on me its embarassing 100 percent of the time even if I accept it and talk about it . its been a really rough two weeks hope your doing better today friend .

 

[Panxiety]

Excatly this is such a dumb thing to struggle with when theres babies with cancer that are bearly old enough to talk and im sitting here letting my mind olay tricks on me its embarassing 100 percent of the time even if I accept it and talk about it . its been a really rough two weeks hope your doing better today friend .

Yup. It's just nuts.

I actually did something yesterday that made me feel much better. I've been having excruciating tension headaches the last month and I noticed that my shoulders and neck have been super tight from all the stress and anxiety. So I decided to get a good massage yesterday. Don't know what the masseuse did with my back, but I heard a crack and then it felt like a rush of blood going through my back (I almost panicked because I thought she hurt my spine), and since then my headache went away and my neck and shoulders are less painful and tense.

Point is, maybe a good massage can help with some of the anxiety. I didn't expect it to help as much as it did.

Hope you have a better day tomorrow.

 

[AiThink]

YouTube videos on anxiety topics really do help. I find them comforting. whether they are first account testimonials or professional talks. Highly recommend.

 

[Shreddykrugaer]

Thank you guys really even having someone to talk to means alot i have been having better days but it sucks I cant shake the dreadful near death feeling and im honestly having better days being pessimistic about it and just accepting that im going to die witch is taking away from my enjoyment but its making my panic attacks i guess feel less cause im convinced that their not gonna stop . but its mentally draining now to tell myself that theres always a lose lose with the health anxiety in really excited to see the Dr monday and get the last testing done on my arterys and heart so i can just have that peace of mind ni matter the length of time or if I just move on to thyroid or cancer or brain paranoia as lognas i knwo there is progress even if its moving on from the heart fear as logn as it just something different .

 

[AiThink]

Sorry you're having trouble. I get really bad health anxiety also. Everytime i feel like i have a grip on things, my brain throws a curve ball and convinces me that its something more serious. For example last week i was getting really bad chest pain, like a pulsating stabbing pain in the left side of my chest. And since my whole ptsd stems from an experience i had 15 years ago, of what i perceived to be a heart attack (dr's ruled this out at the ER), my anxiety quickly goes to a maximum and i rush to panic. So a brief history, when i was 19, i was under some severe stress in my life until this day where my body could not take it anymore and i felt clear symptoms of a heart attack. My entire left arm went tingling, i felt dizzy and temporarily blind. I couldn't breathe and my chest felt like an elephant was standing on it. It was horrible. I never felt closer to death. And although the stress that i was experiencing was very much real and detrimental to my health, the dr's said it was not a heart attack. That it was anxiety. And I was relieved of course but something happened in my brain that day. The experience was too real and somehow my memory of it always lingers within me. So now Every sensation that i get in my chest area triggers the same panic i felt that fateful day. And it only gets triggered if the symptoms are like those I felt that day. Nothing else triggers it. For example if my head hurts i don't start to wonder if im having a stroke. If my leg hurts i don't think twice about it. And it has to be the left side of my chest, i sometimes get pain on my right side and that doesn't trigger it. If anything, right side pain feels like a relief because somehow I rationalize that it is possible to have chest pains without relating to heart problems. The trauma of what I felt that day will probably never leave me, but i must admit that it has gotten better over the years. Where before I would run to the hospital when these sensations would come up, now i just ride the wave, and even though it feels scary and lonely as hell, im still alive and as far as i know in good physical health.

 

[Shreddykrugaer]

Sorry you're having trouble. I get really bad health anxiety also. Everytime i feel like i have a grip on things, my brain throws a curve ball and convinces me that its something more serious. For example last week i was getting really bad chest pain, like a pulsating stabbing pain in the left side of my chest. And since my whole ptsd stems from an experience i had 15 years ago, of what i perceived to be a heart attack (dr's ruled this out at the ER), my anxiety quickly goes to a maximum and i rush to panic. So a brief history, when i was 19, i was under some severe stress in my life until this day where my body could not take it anymore and i felt clear symptoms of a heart attack. My entire left arm went tingling, i felt dizzy and temporarily blind. I couldn't breathe and my chest felt like an elephant was standing on it. It was horrible. I never felt closer to death. And although the stress that i was experiencing was very much real and detrimental to my health, the dr's said it was not a heart attack. That it was anxiety. And I was relieved of course but something happened in my brain that day. The experience was too real and somehow my memory of it always lingers within me. So now Every sensation that i get in my chest area triggers the same panic i felt that fateful day. And it only gets triggered if the symptoms are like those I felt that day. Nothing else triggers it. For example if my head hurts i don't start to wonder if im having a stroke. If my leg hurts i don't think twice about it. And it has to be the left side of my chest, i sometimes get pain on my right side and that doesn't trigger it. If anything, right side pain feels like a relief because somehow I rationalize that it is possible to have chest pains without relating to heart problems. The trauma of what I felt that day will probably never leave me, but i must admit that it has gotten better over the years. Where before I would run to the hospital when these sensations would come up, now i just ride the wave, and even though it feels scary and lonely as hell, im still alive and as far as i know in good physical health.

Yeah the heart is such a weird thing for me I dont know why but i always have the preconceived notion that you wont be able to reallt tell if your having a heart attack or tell shen its gonna happen but its preventable witch doesnt make any sense shen you think about it i guess its like watching tv shows or movies when people randomly jist have heart attacks and never explain why but thats my biggest fear is its just gonna happen one day