Just don't know what to do anymore

[Skribby]

I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I'm 20 years old, and going absolutely nowhere.

I've always been really shy, and was picked on a lot, but I used to be an overachiever, a great artist and I really knew I was going somewhere. Then when I went into high school, everything went to hell. Now I can't seem to do anything right.

I can't seem to find a job, every time I finally work up the courage to make a call or hand in a resume and application, or even if I make it to the interview and think I did good, I never get hired. I was about to start college, then my parents told me they weren't going to pay for it, I had to do it myself, but I have no job or anything, so I had to give up on that. They both don't like what I want to do, I want to go into game design, and all they ever tell me is that I will most likely fail, or never find a job and waste those years in college.

My friends don't seem to care, I used to walk over to their houses, or call them, but they never made any effort in return. They never ask me to come along when they go out or anything.

When I was a senior in high school, I had an art show, my dad basically said he didn't like my art, that really hurt me, so I haven't drawn since then, and I've completely wasted my talent.

My doctor has diagnosed me with depression and social anxiety himself, yet refuses to put me on any medication. He wants me to learn to deal with it on my own, but with things as they are now, it's just making it worse.

Anyways, sorry for writing so much, I doubt anyone could really help me, it just felt good to get that all out I suppose. Thanks for reading.

 

[Mathmark]

I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I'm 20 years old, and going absolutely nowhere.

I've always been really shy, and was picked on a lot, but I used to be an overachiever, a great artist and I really knew I was going somewhere. Then when I went into high school, everything went to hell. Now I can't seem to do anything right.

I can't seem to find a job, every time I finally work up the courage to make a call or hand in a resume and application, or even if I make it to the interview and think I did good, I never get hired. I was about to start college, then my parents told me they weren't going to pay for it, I had to do it myself, but I have no job or anything, so I had to give up on that. They both don't like what I want to do, I want to go into game design, and all they ever tell me is that I will most likely fail, or never find a job and waste those years in college.

My friends don't seem to care, I used to walk over to their houses, or call them, but they never made any effort in return. They never ask me to come along when they go out or anything.

When I was a senior in high school, I had an art show, my dad basically said he didn't like my art, that really hurt me, so I haven't drawn since then, and I've completely wasted my talent.

My doctor has diagnosed me with depression and social anxiety himself, yet refuses to put me on any medication. He wants me to learn to deal with it on my own, but with things as they are now, it's just making it worse.

Anyways, sorry for writing so much, I doubt anyone could really help me, it just felt good to get that all out I suppose. Thanks for reading.

That is a lot to be going thru for someone your age.If i were you,i think i would find a new doctor. There are many meds available that would probably be of great help to you.Best of luck to you.

 

[triceps]

I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I'm 20 years old, and going absolutely nowhere.

I've always been really shy, and was picked on a lot, but I used to be an overachiever, a great artist and I really knew I was going somewhere. Then when I went into high school, everything went to hell. Now I can't seem to do anything right.

I can't seem to find a job, every time I finally work up the courage to make a call or hand in a resume and application, or even if I make it to the interview and think I did good, I never get hired. I was about to start college, then my parents told me they weren't going to pay for it, I had to do it myself, but I have no job or anything, so I had to give up on that. They both don't like what I want to do, I want to go into game design, and all they ever tell me is that I will most likely fail, or never find a job and waste those years in college.

My friends don't seem to care, I used to walk over to their houses, or call them, but they never made any effort in return. They never ask me to come along when they go out or anything.

When I was a senior in high school, I had an art show, my dad basically said he didn't like my art, that really hurt me, so I haven't drawn since then, and I've completely wasted my talent.

My doctor has diagnosed me with depression and social anxiety himself, yet refuses to put me on any medication. He wants me to learn to deal with it on my own, but with things as they are now, it's just making it worse.

Anyways, sorry for writing so much, I doubt anyone could really help me, it just felt good to get that all out I suppose. Thanks for reading.

Couple things I'd suggest:
1) Find a new doctor as you're past the point to recover alone. Mathmark's suggestion is exactly right.

2)Tell your folks that you'll be giving up game design dream for a computer programming degree. My daughter has worked on the last two Call of Duty games but was hired because of her programming/computer coding degree. That degree can get you a job anywhere.

3) Take up your art again. Why would you let your Dad take that away? His is just one opinion and art is so subjective.

4) Keep in mind that you're still young with a long future ahead of you. You just need to be proactive in dealing with the depression which will really help with your social anxiety as you get your self-esteem back.

 

[Rinka]

I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I'm 20 years old, and going absolutely nowhere.

I've always been really shy, and was picked on a lot, but I used to be an overachiever, a great artist and I really knew I was going somewhere. Then when I went into high school, everything went to hell. Now I can't seem to do anything right.

I can't seem to find a job, every time I finally work up the courage to make a call or hand in a resume and application, or even if I make it to the interview and think I did good, I never get hired. I was about to start college, then my parents told me they weren't going to pay for it, I had to do it myself, but I have no job or anything, so I had to give up on that. They both don't like what I want to do, I want to go into game design, and all they ever tell me is that I will most likely fail, or never find a job and waste those years in college.

My friends don't seem to care, I used to walk over to their houses, or call them, but they never made any effort in return. They never ask me to come along when they go out or anything.

When I was a senior in high school, I had an art show, my dad basically said he didn't like my art, that really hurt me, so I haven't drawn since then, and I've completely wasted my talent.

My doctor has diagnosed me with depression and social anxiety himself, yet refuses to put me on any medication. He wants me to learn to deal with it on my own, but with things as they are now, it's just making it worse.

Anyways, sorry for writing so much, I doubt anyone could really help me, it just felt good to get that all out I suppose. Thanks for reading.

It sound terrible. Don’t let other people decide what you want to do in your live. If game design is something that makes you happy, then so be it. Its your life and you have to live it, no one else. In regards to the depression, I have to agree with the others, get a new doctor. Someone who is able to listen to you and helps you with your needs.

 

[Aerith]

I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I'm 20 years old, and going absolutely nowhere.

I've always been really shy, and was picked on a lot, but I used to be an overachiever, a great artist and I really knew I was going somewhere. Then when I went into high school, everything went to hell. Now I can't seem to do anything right.

I can't seem to find a job, every time I finally work up the courage to make a call or hand in a resume and application, or even if I make it to the interview and think I did good, I never get hired. I was about to start college, then my parents told me they weren't going to pay for it, I had to do it myself, but I have no job or anything, so I had to give up on that. They both don't like what I want to do, I want to go into game design, and all they ever tell me is that I will most likely fail, or never find a job and waste those years in college.

My friends don't seem to care, I used to walk over to their houses, or call them, but they never made any effort in return. They never ask me to come along when they go out or anything.

When I was a senior in high school, I had an art show, my dad basically said he didn't like my art, that really hurt me, so I haven't drawn since then, and I've completely wasted my talent.

My doctor has diagnosed me with depression and social anxiety himself, yet refuses to put me on any medication. He wants me to learn to deal with it on my own, but with things as they are now, it's just making it worse.

Anyways, sorry for writing so much, I doubt anyone could really help me, it just felt good to get that all out I suppose. Thanks for reading.

Is your father a recognised art critic? If not, don't too much attention to what he says. Everyone has a different view of what is good or bad in art, it is very subjective. Don't be put off by other people. If it is something that you enjoy and gives you pleasure, then you should stick with it.