I've had it all along.

[Izthewiz]

Hello friends.
I've been pondering when and how my health anxiety started.
Today I was really just deep in thought and timelines I can remember that stuck out and test I had.

2009 thought I had hiv.
Got tested and nothing.
2012 thought I had hiv or some other std from years ago when single
Tested and nothing.
2019 thought I had bladder cancer and
Battery of tests nothing.
From 2013-2018 I was gambling a lot and could hide how I was feeling during these times.
I believe Health Anxiety is a manifestation of common fears that is out of our hands.
I'm not sure if I still have health anxiety so much but I do accept I worry.

 

[FinneousRex]

After thinking I was dying then not actually dying so many times I think I’ve beaten the “health anxiety” thing for the most part. I would have died by now if these things I thought were true were actually true lol.

Worry, panic, impending doom and paranoia are where it’s at in my anxiety world lol RIP my sanity

 

[Jessco11]

It's interesting that you talk about "when it started". I always try to figure out the "why it started". No answers for me yet. But I hope your timeline helps you heal in some way. Maybe I'll try to do the same and I'll get my answer too.