Well hi everyone. I am 40 married with three eight year olds at home. My husband is a counselor (oh boy). I really came on this site to be able to talk and socialize, since I am having a hard time doing that anywhere else. Now on top of all of my other disorders, panic and anxiety I have also become a recluse. Meds have never helped me except for with my panic attacks. My marriage is unhappy, mainly because I seem to take on all of the guilt of anything that goes wrong. I have three older children and my husband doesn't like the added drama they bring to our life. They are 18 , 20. and 22. He also doesn't like the every other weekend/every other holiday and half the summer break parenting time for my twins from second marriage. His unhappiness is really making me worse.