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[PurpleSky09]

I have anxiety, depression, PTSD, OCD, ADHD. I’m 28. My problems started around 19. I quit doing drugs and drinking and that’s when it all started. I went through some trauma when I was 15 and turned to drugs and alcohol. I got therapy and was put on medication and it helped a lot. By 25 I was able to leave an abusive relationship and started to become myself again. Since then life has been great. I have a great job, the best boyfriend and I’m working on my bachelors degree.

For the past 3 months I’ve been suffering from depression spells. I go a few days being horribly depressed and then I’m okay for about 3 weeks and then the cycle repeats. My anxiety has been so much worse too. Panic attacks almost daily. My life is great right now and I don’t know why all this is happening. It’s been years since I’ve been this bad. I just don’t know how to pull myself out of the cycle.

 

[Hurt&Hopeful]

Hey there, and welcome! Sorry you haven’t gotten any responses on this. The forum has been really busy over the holidays. But there are lots of folks here going through what you are going through, or that have gone through it in the past (me included). I have a great husband, a kid, a good job, a home, friends, etc. And then panic comes out of nowhere, for seemingly no reason. It sounds like you went through some really tough things in your teens, and the PTSD is catching up with you now, to be honest. I went to talk therapy for years and never really seemed to get at the root of the anxiety. Not until I went to someone who really specializes in trauma and PTSD, and that was game-changing for me. Trauma does weird things to your brain and body, and you can get “stuck” in anxiety and depression and not really understand why.

Are you still in therapy? Still on medication? You need some help. You are NOT crazy, and there is help for what you’re going through. I hope you find some good support and ideas here on the site.

 

[MainerMikeBrown]

PurpleSky, I think it's great that you quit drugs and drinking, are going to college, and have a good quality relationship with your boyfriend. It sounds like you've accomplished a lot in your life.