Hi! I'm new here, obviously. I've never done anything else like this on the internet, but the people here look really sweet. This sounds really stupid, even to me, but I feel really lonely. I'm bad with people. I never know what to do or what to say. I can never look at people. I can never come up with funny, witty remarks. I just started seventh grade, and although I like my teachers, socializing is the real struggle. I'm not bullied or anything, but I always get this feeling that people secretly hate me, even when I have no evidence to prove so. I have some skin problems. It really affects my self esteem.I really hate looking in the mirror. I recently started seeing a dermatologist, so that's good. I don't really like myself, I guess. I never really have friends over. I mean, I have school acquaintances, but no one who I would consider a best friend. I feel really alone all the time. Sometimes I wonder if anyone will ever have a crush on me or love me in a romantic way when I am older. I think love is the best part of being alive, and what if I never get to experience it? And do you ever look at popular people and wonder, "Why? You're mean to everyone and treat people like trash, yet everyone would die for you." and you feel bad for thinking like that, because you know you have so much to be grateful for,but...I don't know. I think I have depression, but maybe my subconscious is trying to convince me of that because I secretly want attention. I don't even know, which is pretty pathetic. I feel like if I died, no one would really miss me. I have these sorts of thoughts right after I do something awkward. Okay, I'm done Sorry for being so...vomit-y? I had a lot to say. I kind of have to just get it out there, you know? So, how are you guys doing?