Couldn't have said it better. We don't often discuss religion or faith on the forum, but I'm also a Christian - and I have fallen to my knees many times and begged God to take this away. And he hasn't - not permanently, anyways. BUT - he is not silent, and he has used my anxiety to teach me, to make me stronger, to help others, and to make me more reliant on Him and not just on my own strength. That's what faith is - it's not an ATM where you put prayer in and get relief out. The truth is that God never promises physical/mental healing. He sometimes says what he said to Paul when he begged for God to take away his struggles: 'My grace is sufficient.'I’m a Christian and I believe that God can do anything. He can heal anyone, but sometimes He chooses not to. And sometimes He chooses to heal them through therapy and medication. And that’s okay. I’ve fallen on my knees and cried and prayed sincerely several times in my struggle with HA. But guess what. It’s still here. Some days worse than ever. That’s just life. God is still ever present in my life. And sometimes He uses things in our life to help other people who are struggling with the same things we are. God never promised that we wouldn’t have trials and tribulations in this life. But He did promise that He would be with us through them. Also, keep in mind that God uses different things to heal us. There is no shame in a Christian taking medication or going to therapy, or even praying and asking the Lord for healing. If that works for you, praise the Lord! But what works for one person, may not work for the next. And that’s okay. We’re all different and have different ways of coping with this.
I will say that through my own struggle, that prayer is what has gotten me through so many times, because I know that when no one else listens, God does. Just because I don’t audibly hear from Him, doesn’t mean He isn’t listening. He uses other things to speak to me, like through His word, a song, or a conversation with someone. And that’s what gets me through.
To the original poster, I truly hope that you are, in fact, DONE with anxiety and depression. But if you're not, I hope your faith helps you through it and isn't destroyed because you think you didn't pray hard enough. God is so much bigger than our anxiety, friend. And we're all here to support each other, no matter our faith or background - you are welcome here whenever.