I'm just tired

[Concernedgal]

I had a good couple of months my anxiety was still there but.... barely noticeable.
But, lately my anxiety has really been acting up.
I have stayed strong for as long as I feel like I can . I am trying to be strong and trying to power through it but. ...who is to say that I can't give up. Why should I keep fighting to have a half way normal life? I am tired of fighting. I'm tired of my knees feeling like jello and i'm tired of having to meditate everytime I want to do simple things like riding in a car or even just being awake is exhausting. I never feel rested and I never feel at ease.
I am always on high alert.
I am not living .
Inot order for me to live .. I have to fight for it.
Why do I have to struggle to live and have a life and others have no problem living life?
They can effortlessly just jump in the car and go anywhere and do anything they wish but,me...I can't do it.
It's not how they drive or act ...it's not them at all .
There is no reason for this anxiety. .none! And I don't see why this is happening to me.
I'm just tired of having to fight .

 

[triceps]

I'm in the same boat, really I am. But I'm also on disability because I can't drive or ride for a lengthy period of time. I can't explain but am sure you understand how discouraging it gets at times. You just have to keep battling. I got anxiety 50 years ago. I had more mental energy to fight it when younger and had a successful career. I sure feel lucky for that. Now, as I age, the energy for the fight has lessened and I'm getting worse by the month. But I'll keep after it because even with the limitations, I still enjoy life and am better off than many handicapped folks.I hope you can bounce thru your current discouragement and "why me?" attitude and accept that this is how things are at this moment. Things will improve for you. The fight is worth it.

 

[Concernedgal]

I'm in the same boat, really I am. But I'm also on disability because I can't drive or ride for a lengthy period of time. I can't explain but am sure you understand how discouraging it gets at times. You just have to keep battling. I got anxiety 50 years ago. I had more mental energy to fight it when younger and had a successful career. I sure feel lucky for that. Now, as I age, the energy for the fight has lessened and I'm getting worse by the month. But I'll keep after it because even with the limitations, I still enjoy life and am better off than many handicapped folks.I hope you can bounce thru your current discouragement and "why me?" attitude and accept that this is how things are at this moment. Things will improve for you. The fight is worth it.

You sound like u.do understand. Especially about the car anxiety. That seems to be the majority of my problems right now.

 

[Brad66]

Do you know what event caused the car anxiety?

 

[Concernedgal]

Do you know what event caused the car anxiety?

Yes .
Back in 2008...my husband and I were on our way to a State Fair .
Our truck had no air conditioning and it was 115 outside.
We were almost at our destination when all of a sudden ...BOOM! The symptoms developed.
I felt sick and faint and I also felt as though I was about to die...literally.
I proceeded to tell my husband how much I loved him and telling him to marry again and all that type of stuff.
We stopped at a gas station and got a drink ..an ambulance was called and when I got there I was diagnosed with having a severe panic attack.
It wasn't heat stroke or exhaustion because my electrolytes were in good balance.
Ativan was given and I slept the while way back home .
Now I have an expectation of this happening everytime I get into a vehicle.