I think I'm not right for anything

[Shareth]

I'm back, after a few months and thinking I would be alright now, but I'm feeling like I'm sinking again
I feel so empty in my life, I don't have any friends to talk to about what I feel, and my feelings are so mixed up and tangled together that even when I try to talk with my girlfriend, I just end up looking like a complete idiot
I'm being dreadful for no reason, really being angry because I'm feeling like things are not right ... I feel like I shouldn't be living in this world, everything is making me sad, it can be small things from animals dead bodies on the road to comics about animal abuse (those comics about a cat talking with death, don't know if anyone of you already saw them), are bringing me to tears.
Strangely enough I don't feel anything for humans, no pity, no sadness, just animals.
These latest days I've been feeling even more sad than before, regularly locking myself in my bathroom and crying in the bathtub to make it pass, but l don't know why I'm sad. I think it's the whole feeling of living in a world l don't belong to. I'm cracking up in front of fairytale cartoon movies, desperate that nothing in life is magical and that I'm stuck here.
I know everything is messed up, I think something is wrong in my life, but I'm on the border of the line.
I don't enjoy anything anymore, I'm not feeling anything playing videogames like the way I used too, nor eat my favourite meal (I was supposed to have it tonight, but I didn't ate the whole thing, it tasted like ashes in my mouth)

And then, I have my girlfriend, which is the last person I'm living for. I feel like I'm too much for her. She's mentally depressed and she has trouble talking to people. I love her. But lately I feel like she doesn't understand how I feel.
In fact, I wish I could talk to someone else about all this, I dream of having a friend that would understand how I feel and still accept me like that, but k never had luck on this field
So my last resort is this forum, I thought someone could just tell me that I'm alright, or maybe brighten up my day, because I've never been so alone in my life, and I'm desperate to meet a friendly face in this world full of **** and hatred ...

Thanks you if you've read through the whole thing and I apologize for my errors if I made some ... It's 2 am here and I'm not an English native

 

[Wally]

Have you tried talking to someone? Is there a hotline, support group, or church in your area where you can talk to someone? Even if your not religious I’m sure a church will listen to you.

Right now everyone is feeling stress, sad, or anxious. Don’t give up, stay strong, take care of yourself, and find someone to talk too.

 

[MarciKS]

I agree with Wally. I think it's time you make some calls and see if there's someone you could talk to about getting some help.