I think I have high functioning depression

[Howlingvapor]

When I first went through my breakup I new I was severely depressed, but in the back of my mind I assumed it was situational, but looking back I’m wondering if maybe it’s something I’ve had a long time, but didn’t know it. I’ve taken dozens of online depression tests and while I understand they don’t necessarily mean anything they almost always say I have severe depression or at least moderate depression, and yet I can still get up in the morning and go to work, make conversation, spend time with friends and all without feeling necessarily sad. However, doing all that every day is extremely hard. I constantly feel exhausted no matter how much I sleep, I often stay up half the night and sleep in, I avoid doing anything fun or adventurous because I don’t want to expend the energy, I feel like I’m constantly in a daze and can’t focus on anything, and it’s so rare when something other than mindlessly watching tv interests me that when it does I set aside a whole afternoon for whatever it is just so I can feel something. I’ve had these issues for at least a few years even before I even met the girl that would break my heart. I feel like a ghost in my day to day life, unfeeling and unresponsive like I don’t even exist. The problem with being this way is that everything easy is hard and everything somewhat difficult or time consuming is impossible.

So am I crazy or does this merit a doctors appointment? I’m just really sick of not feeling like doing anything that isn’t immediately pressing or important. I want to go out and make plans, but it’s hard when you barely have the energy to get important stuff done.


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[Squid Jones]

Well you're probably not crazy. But yeah, if your mood is affecting you to the point where it's having a real, detrimental impact on your life then of course seeing a doctor is probably not a bad idea. Just the fact that you decided to join a forum like this is a sign that something's not quite right. So yeah, if you've never seen a doctor about these issues before then I'd encourage you to do so. Couldn't hurt.