I Need to Go To the Doctor - But Can't - Please Help

[Rathgar]

Hi all,
56 YO female here:
I have a history of adominal surgeries for endometriosis and a partial hysterectomy. Every surgery found a lot of adhesions - scar tissue - which reforms after surgery.
My last surgery was in 2005, so I've had a long run.
I have had strange pelvic pulling, off and on trouble with bowel movements, weird tugging and occasional pain in the area of my one ovary (they left one) and the colon.

Here's the thing:
I used to go to the obgyn for biyearly transvaginal scans (I have always been sure I will get OC).
I have NOT gone back to the doctor in at least 5 years - my last visit they told me that they saw a possible cyst, but explained adhesions will reform and that I should avoid more surgeries if possible. That my bigger issue was my weight ( I am significantly overweight) and I should focus on that.

I have recently gone downhill :

I have increased weight - my belly in particular (of course I believe that is a sign of OC). Yes, I have been sedentary and eat crap.
I have occasional pain in lower back - feels like it's radiating to pelvic area.
I have bad hot flashes - I am hot all of the time.
I have been to the ER twice recently for allergic reaction to anxiety meds. (They did blood work both times - would that show if I had cancer?)

Only thing to do is get a vaginal scan to stop this fixation but I feel too much time has passed and I MUST now have OC.

Please talk to me about any of the above. I am very depressed today (won't go back on anxiety meds so nothing to help me there).

Thank you everyone. I just need to communicate with someone.

 

[He Man]

Rathgar, I'm sorry to hear about your suffering. I'll pray for your peace of mind and healing.

I find baby steps are the best method out of a downward spiral. Make small changes in diet & start light exercise (if possible). I've found exercise is the best, most effective alternative to medication.

See a doctor if u feel it's needed, the dread of going is often worse than the actual trip. Keep us posted.

 

[Rathgar]

Hi He Man,
Thanks for answering. I am trying to change diet and exercise but keep getting sidetracked with anxiety.
I know I need to make the doctor appt.

 

[Rathgar]

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[Cuchculan]

Can I first ask are you from Rathgar? Is a place in Ireland.

Any roads. The pains. They could be easily caused by your weight issues. Simply as that. Most people who carry weight do suffer with back pain. This can also lead to the pelvic pain. I am the reverse of you. Skinny. They wanted me to put weight on. But if I do nothing, by way of walking, movement, for a day or two, my joints will ache like crazy. If we are talking weight issues and eating crap, can we assume that exercise is not your thing? Is not my thing either. But I at least try and get out for walks. Or else my body will begin to hurt just from doing nothing that involves the body. We can get these pains and imagine them to be something else. When really it is just the body telling us it needs some form of exercise. Even today with all the rain here, I cleaned all the bedrooms, just to do something. Change in diet would be great. But without exercise of any sort, you might still have the same pains. Even a ten minute walk a day.

 

[Rathgar]

Hi Cuchculan,
My parents were from Ireland - one grew up in Rathgar. I spent many years visiting.
I am in the U.S.
I definitely need to exercise. I suppose if I keep waiting for a "good" day when I feel "good" it will never come when you suffering from HA.

 

[Cuchculan]

But even some simple form of exercise in the house. Not talking anything major here. Even your garden. Just outside the house in the air. More just to keep the body moving. So the joints don't become stiff and unused. I am guilty of doing both. Then when we do begin to do things it can hurt like hell. Any kind of movement is better than nothing at all.