I must be sleep typing...Hello!

[The_Lex_Files]

Hi I’m Alexandra, but go by Lex.
I suffer from severe anxiety which causes some depression and flares up my fibromyalgia horribly
I can’t sleep and thought I’d say hi and get my thoughts out here.
I have a constant feeling of uneasiness, panic and stress that is reeeeaaaallllly getting old. I’ve been in and out of therapy, been on many meds, been admitted into a mental health facility twice due to serotonin syndrome that caused me to attempt suicide and quit jobs due to not being able to function without panicking and I’m only 29!
I’m working part time right now after leaving a highly stressful 40+ job, but now this job is getting in the way of my mental health. I feel like the smallest inconvenience at work sets me off So I bottle it up until I get into my car and cry after I clock out.
I’m really thinking about putting in my two weeks tomorrow, since I can’t afford to have another mental breakdown.

Anyone with positive vibes? Thank you!

 

[JCP]

Hey Lex, sorry you’re going through all that. I can certainly relate. I hope we can make you feel better. It’s great to have you here, welcome!

 

[The_Lex_Files]

Thank you!!

 

[Rinka]

Welcome @The_Lex_Files what kind of work are you doing? Maybe it’s the line of work itself that is triggering you? I hope we can make a bit of a difference for you here, even if it’s just a tiny bit

 

[The_Lex_Files]

Welcome @The_Lex_Files what kind of work are you doing? Maybe it’s the line of work itself that is triggering you? I hope we can make a bit of a difference for you here, even if it’s just a tiny bit

Sales/Customer Service. I just don’t want to deal with people anymore I put my two weeks in yesterday and just need a break and time to breath before I think of what else I can possibly do. Thank you for your kindness

 

[Joshua Farrell]

Welcome to the forum Lex. Tid bit of information that I know, due to experience with family and friends, any customer service job that is sales oriented tends to break people down emotionally, so it is a good thing to get away from something like that. I wouldn't want your health to suffer because of the stress!

 

[The_Lex_Files]

Welcome to the forum Lex. Tid bit of information that I know, due to experience with family and friends, any customer service job that is sales oriented tends to break people down emotionally, so it is a good thing to get away from something like that. I wouldn't want your health to suffer because of the stress!

Thank you so much! My last day is in two weeks so it gives me a bit of relief knowing I won’t have to do it much longer!

 

[Rick Sanchez]

Welcome Lex!

 

[The_Lex_Files]

Welcome Lex!

Thank you!

 

[LostMyWay]

A couple of years ago when I was still able to actually do things like voice and video chats I would do video chats regularly with a girl that suffered from fibromyalgia. There would be times while doing those chats that it would flare up for her, and I could just sense the pain she was going through. It was hard to watch her in so much pain, so I hope you don't suffer from it that badly. After seeing what it can do I know just how hard it can be to deal with.

As for your job, honestly I would do what you think is best for you. If it's stressing you out a lot and just causing you problems then I would look for something else. You seem to have enough problems already with your personal issues, so I hope you do something that will make things easier for you. There's no need to make everything worse for yourself, so do what you need to do but make sure it isn't going to be something that ends up hurting you even more.

By the way, if you ever need to vent or anything feel free to message me. It would help me as well since I'm trying to meet new people and get over my own anxiety in the process. My middle name is Alexander by the way, just thought that was interesting with your name being Alexandra. Anyway, take care.

 

[The_Lex_Files]

A couple of years ago when I was still able to actually do things like voice and video chats I would do video chats regularly with a girl that suffered from fibromyalgia. There would be times while doing those chats that it would flare up for her, and I could just sense the pain she was going through. It was hard to watch her in so much pain, so I hope you don't suffer from it that badly. After seeing what it can do I know just how hard it can be to deal with.

As for your job, honestly I would do what you think is best for you. If it's stressing you out a lot and just causing you problems then I would look for something else. You seem to have enough problems already with your personal issues, so I hope you do something that will make things easier for you. There's no need to make everything worse for yourself, so do what you need to do but make sure it isn't going to be something that ends up hurting you even more.

By the way, if you ever need to vent or anything feel free to message me. It would help me as well since I'm trying to meet new people and get over my own anxiety in the process. My middle name is Alexander by the way, just thought that was interesting with your name being Alexandra. Anyway, take care.

Thank you! My fibromyalgia isn’t as bad as it was years ago. I was first diagnosed in 2014. I used to be in the gym 6-7 days a week for 2 hours and I had a job lined up with LA Fitness because my dream was to become a personal trainer, but all of a sudden my body was shutting down. Everything hurt. I thought it was my workouts so I took a break from the gym and became extremely depressed since i wasn’t able to workout. I could barely walk because of the pain in all of my joints and I thought I had some form of arthritis. My doctor couldn’t figure it out with the blood work or X-rays so I thought I was crazy. Finally I mentioned pain along the back of my head and along my shoulder blades so he did the “trigger point test” and as he pressed on certain areas of my body I started to cry because it felt as if he was jamming a knife into me. Anyway, I tried meds for it which helped for a couple of years until I was on too many antidepressants that caused me to have serotonin syndrome and I hung myself because I had constant thoughts of suicide. I was sent to a behavioral health institute and the psychiatrist there put me on ones that don’t interact and I felt normal.
LONG story short, I now only take Xanax for panic attacks and my fibromyalgia isn’t as bad so I’m too afraid to take any other medications. I have my medical marijuana card but I hate the way I feel when I’m high so I quit that too.

I forgot where I was going with this LOL! Anyway, thank you for being nice!