I have emetophobia and I’m scared this is gonna make me sick?

[avverie]

Okay so we have a bakery that makes pepperoni rolls which is bread with pepperoni and some cheese. They leave them out at room temperature 24/7. I’ve always eaten them and was never sick. So yesterday my boyfriend picked me up some and put it in his saddle bags on his bike and went riding for like 6 hours or so. It was 85 degrees outside and I didn’t think of it and ate the roll when he got home. I ate it lastnight at 10 pm. It is now 6:30 am so hopefully I’ll be okay. I mean it wasn’t in direct sunlight and it was in a covered saddle bag so it definitely had to be warm in there? Will that make me sick? I mean they keep pizza out on warmers all day so it could be like that in a way? It was wrapped up right and they leave them out at room temperature anyways. Ugh I’m panicking I knew I shouldn’t have ate it. I feel like if I was gonna be sick I would’ve by now, because majority of food poisoning begins two hours after but it can wait up to 24 hours before it begans. So I hope I’ll be okay. I mean it’s kinda like the beef and cheese sticks from the gas station? I’ve ate those when they were in car and they are not refrigerated either. I’m scared to puke and I have a complete phobia of it. It’s the main reason I have horrible anxiety so anything that can possibly make me sick I panic for a week. Please tell me I’ll be okay! But be honest like if it will make me sick tell me. My family is saying it’s fine and my boyfriend even ate one.


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[Cuchculan]

This is something I have suffered from in years. More a mind thing. The fear is real. It is horrible. More just a case of asking yourself ' why should I get sick now '. This is something I have had to ask myself many times over the years. Lord knows I was afraid to touch food at times. Fear of throwing up. I would eat smaller meals. More of them. Not one big meal. Just to keep the mind happy. All day long I would nibble away and various things. Just putting more food in my body. But never in a way that I ever felt stuffed. Then there would be the times I would think other had a bug and they would pass it on to me. It was just nightmare. But one we have to live with. Try and weigh up the chances that what you are thinking is real or unreal? I can get sick from this. Can you really? Chances are that you can't. This is just something I began doing. Even at night if I felt bad in bed, I would give into it. Lay there and say ' hit me with you all that you've got '. Might be a bit of fighting between the mind and the body. But before long I would simply fall asleep. As for your roll, that was how many hours ago now? If you were going to be sick I think it would have happened by now. But I do fully understand the fear. I have lived with that same fear.

Oddly this year I have been sick loads of times. Infections in the stomach and ulcers. No idea if that has helped my Emetaphobia or not. I have never thrown up in my life as much as I have this year. Just a strange kind of year for a person who feared thrown up. I am seriously curious to see if I do still fear getting sick. Because it happened 20 plus times a day for a few days. Then I had a burst ulcer. It was a mixture of blood and bile I was thrown up. Not actual foods. To go through that and still be sitting here fine, shows me, that maybe it is not as bad as I always imagined it to be. Let's be honest here. We always think the worst. To run from it for years and then have it hit you and see that you survived teaches you a lot about it and yourself. Like any other fears it ends up not been as bad as I thought. But like yourself the fear for me was real. I would have done anything to not get sick. That was my life for years.

 

[AnxiousBean]

I think you're fine! You've passed the window =) I am the same way, though about food going bad. I am always scared that food left out for more than an hour means it's no good, but I know it's not the case. It's just my mind/anxiety getting my better judgement. There is someone I work with who leaves yogurt out ALL day on her desk and then she will eat it at the end of the day. Never gets sick. It totally freaks me out. At my parents house, they leave fresh cut fruit out on the counter for a few hours, put it back in the fridge and then eat it the next day. I shudder every time I see it and I have to make a mental note to not eat their fruit no matter how tempting. Like Cuchculan, I have thrown up more this year than any year of my life and to be honest... it's actually not so bad (if I'm not in public or alone). I made such a big deal about it in the past, obsessed with trying to avoid it because, lets face it, nobody likes to throw up. I am still scared to throw up and be alone in the house, or do it in public. I don't want to be embarrassed like I was in 1st grade. Right after my dad dropped me off at school, I threw up in front of a bunch of kids lined up to go into the building. Luckily it was outside and first thing in the morning, so I was able to go home. That was during the days before cell phones so my dad had to get the message on the answering machine at home. I think that's where my phobia came from.