I Had A Dream Last Night.

[Concernedgal]

Last night's dream was kinda odd. I dreamed that I was 16 again . It started out pretty good. I was out with friends having fun when all of a sudden my teenage me looks at who I am today . I told myself " I'm ashamed of you, I expected more for myself". " How could you do this to me?". I wonder what that dream means? I woke up and nearly had a panic attack. I couldn't go back to sleep. Has anyone else here ever had such a dream? If so, what did you make of it? Does this mean that i'm unhappy with my life? Lord help me. Can somebody offer some advice. I've borderline obsessive trying to figure this out. Is a dream like this just a part of depression or does it have a deeper meaning?

 

[janemariesayed]

This is my subject! I used to have a dream diary beside my bed because I was always having dreams. Some dreams would come true as well which used to fascinate me. At times I would go to bed wondering what 'movie' my mind would give me that night. There are other dreams though that were just a release of the day or recent events.

There is a brilliant website called 'Dream moods' and they not only have a forum but they also have a dream dictionary as well.

The thing with interpreting dreams is that you need to sort the wheat from the chaff. Dreams give symbols where you can easily interpret the meaning but other dreams are more difficult.

I love interpreting dreams. Some dreams I've managed to interpret while others have baffled me. So, I will have a go at interpreting yours @Concernedgal

It certainly seems like your dream has taken you back in time. This would be to give you a message for today. It is your subconscious speaking to yourself and telling you what you actually think deep down. Deep down, (according to your dream) you are ashamed of how you are today. You are ashamed of your mental state and how it affects you. The fact that you were 16 again and having fun is showing you the difference in your character today. You are telling yourself off in your dream. 'How could you do this to me?' The dream is telling you that you CAN make a change, and that deep down, you KNOW that you can make that change. The dream is saying that you are disappointed with yourself and the problems that you have.

What the dream is advising I think is that you should be gentle on yourself and seek help. It is saying that you can heal. Because you are telling yourself of the disappointment and shame you feel within (in your dream) it is like 'the other you.' Your subconscious mind is giving you a talking to.

It is saying to look how you were years ago, and that you are still that person and can be that way again.

It is a good dream as it is saying what you were before you could be again. It's not a worrying dream but it is a dream that is telling you off so to speak. It is saying that you can make a change and your inner self is expecting it.

 

[Concernedgal]

My life changed completelyafter I met my husband. It became all about him and I started to pit myself on the back burner. You see... in order to get myself back I havr to be by myself again aND that scares me. I just don't know what to do anymore and I don't won't to lose him but, I don't want to be this way anymore.

 

[XmasCarol52]

I have had some pretty good dreams,like i was alone in the dark yelling for my friend she couldnt hear me and I was so afraid I lost her,I am always afraid of losing someone believe me I have been dumped on plenty of times,I never knew what i did wrong but it hurts when u think you know someone and they dropped you like a rock.They say if you are thinking about something when u go to sleep you may end up dreaming about it.so maybe you were thinking about when u were younger and that manifested in your dreams,or nightmares in my case sometimes. THere is so much I wish I could do like lose weight take a trip to the marina got no way to get there,i use to love to go down there with my husband at night sit on the park bench look out into the water the boats with there lights would make the water look so beautiful.. I haven 't been there now in 14 years .. JUst talking about what i wish i could do.Not have to worry about falling every single time i walk... ugh

 

[janemariesayed]

My life changed completelyafter I met my husband. It became all about him and I started to pit myself on the back burner. You see... in order to get myself back I havr to be by myself again aND that scares me. I just don't know what to do anymore and I don't won't to lose him but, I don't want to be this way anymore.

Bless you @Concernedgal how would you feel if you were to take a class or something? Something that interests you and you do by yourself? If you were to do a 6 week pottery course for example. You would meet other people and have that time for yourself. It seems that you are feeling subconsciously resentful against him and there is an easy way out of that feeling.

The way out is to do something for yourself, without him present. You can do it, you are strong enough. If you have a trouble going out, how about painting? baking a cake? A craft of some kind? It needs to be something that you do and he doesn't. I think you need something for yourself. You can get that without leaving him if you put your thinking cap on.

 

[Concernedgal]

Good idea but, I can't help but wonder if my former self was telling me to leave my husband or not. Maybe subconsciously my former self is telling me to.

 

[Concernedgal]

I have had some pretty good dreams,like i was alone in the dark yelling for my friend she couldnt hear me and I was so afraid I lost her,I am always afraid of losing someone believe me I have been dumped on plenty of times,I never knew what i did wrong but it hurts when u think you know someone and they dropped you like a rock.They say if you are thinking about something when u go to sleep you may end up dreaming about it.so maybe you were thinking about when u were younger and that manifested in your dreams,or nightmares in my case sometimes. THere is so much I wish I could do like lose weight take a trip to the marina got no way to get there,i use to love to go down there with my husband at night sit on the park bench look out into the water the boats with there lights would make the water look so beautiful.. I haven 't been there now in 14 years .. JUst talking about what i wish i could do.Not have to worry about falling every single time i walk... ugh

I used to enjoy going to the beach before the agoraphobia set in. There's a lot of things I missue out on now a days. Come to think about it I did read an article that day on the link between narcissistic abuse and anxiety disorders that explained that children who were mentally abusedor bullied as a child are most likely to develop anxiety disorders as adults. It's got something to do with an interuption in healthy brain development. I suppose that got me thinking about when I was a child and when I was younger. Do you think i'm taking this dream to seriously?

 

[XmasCarol52]

No not at all sometimes they say dreams mean something try looking it up they actually have sites where you can find out what your dreams mean,I have snake ones eeekke i cannot even look at one and i cringe it is awful snakes eek make me sick and the dreams about them always wake me up in a panic..

 

[Concernedgal]

According to a dream website... apparently the dream means that I hate myself.

 

[janemariesayed]

According to a dream website... apparently the dream means that I hate myself.

What website says that? Can you give me the link so I can interpret?

I don't actually think it means you hate yourself. I think it is your subconscious telling you that it is, (you are) disappointed with who you are today. So it is, (you are) telling yourself that you can change as it showed you what you were before. The dream is saying 'this is who I was, so who is that I've become now? It's not me, this is me!' Do you get that? There is a disappointment, but it isn't hate.

 

[janemariesayed]

It is also a prompt for you to make changes in yourself @Concernedgal Your subconscious is telling you that you can do it by showing you what you were before.

 

[XmasCarol52]

According to a dream website... apparently the dream means that I hate myself.

Well if this helps any I do not hate you. You seem to be a good person and care about others that is a very important part of you.Dreams at times can be so stupid and of course scary.I hate it when the snakes are crawling all over me ugh now that scares me, some web sites say one thing and some say something else..Maybe you just want to be before the bad stuff happened to you. i think i said that right

 

[janemariesayed]

Well if this helps any I do not hate you. You seem to be a good person and care about others that is a very important part of you.Dreams at times can be so stupid and of course scary.I hate it when the snakes are crawling all over me ugh now that scares me, some web sites say one thing and some say something else..Maybe you just want to be before the bad stuff happened to you. i think i said that right

This is what I am thinking exactly. So it is just disappointment, not hatred at all. And I don't hate you either @Concernedgal I've really appreciated our growing friendship on here and I think you are lovely!

 

[Concernedgal]

Thank you for your kind words everybody. Maybe 1 day I can think good of myself. It's just going to take time. I've grown up being bullied and mentallly abused. It's all I used to kniw. When I had that dream of a good time I had in my life.... I guess I just wanted that to last forever. I 've have also made great friends . I appreciate each and everyone of you. Although it's a terrible thing to say.... I think the dream meaning was spot on.
I really do think I hate myself.

 

[XmasCarol52]

I am going to tell you something I dont love myself at all, I mean what is there to love? I always thought it was selfish to love yourself. I cannot do anything ,fear just about everything,like what good am i? I feel like such a big failure.

 

[Concernedgal]

That's exactly why u feel the way feel about myself. The simplest things I cannot achieve. I feel like i'm just stupid. Like now,it's 80 degrees outside and I just got off work. I'm worried abouto the heat right now. I get suck about it becauseof that 1 time I suffered a heat related episode. I felt like I was about to die. So now. .. I don't trust the heat. And I don't trust big box grocery stores and you know what ? I dont think I trust this world. But, people I can trust though. At least i've got that.

 

[XmasCarol52]

This illness is crippling it takes away everything from us how many times have I wished that I go to the beach just to sit in the sand to watch the waves roll in or maybe just take a swim but no I cannot go it is about a 45 minute ride anyway,but i have so many nice memories from being down there,I wish i could figure out why we have to be afraid all the damn time,I get so sick of living like this,why cant i be normal. Why is it a task to do anything? I hate the humidity the heat if it is really to bad i have to put my ac on.It can do a job on you,I know that sometimes the heat can play havac with our anxieties and stuff but all i want t do now is be able to sleep the last couple of nights i onl y got two hours of sleep i need my sleep cause when i cannot get it i feel shaky have a very hard time with walkinig and i feel like i am going to fall,it is awful worrying about falling every single time i get up,l once u have a major falling accident it sticks with you.why cant we live anxiety free and have no fears,wouldnt that be nice

 

[Concernedgal]

That is the ultimate question isn't it? Why can't we just be normal? I don't know I just don't know. That's the reason I feel so down all the time. The love for my life is gone. I have a hard time understanding why. In my opinion I believe we are being punished for something we've done in a past life. But, then again I can't really say. I was just born , that's all. What did we do? I just can't justify this.

 

[janemariesayed]

I don't love myself very much either. I've been brought up to believe that I don't deserve good things. I was taught that I should be punished just for existing. So I have grown up not loving myself. I've always put others before myself and been really considerate. Not that it has ever done me any good. It bothers me in a depressive way that others (some) can be so selfish.

Don't hate yourself @Concernedgal because in your dream you liked who you were. But you don't like who you are now. In time things will get better and hopefully, you will begin to see that you are very likable. You come across as a nice kind of person.

Can I give you a challenge? Will you write down a list? On a piece of paper draw a line down the middle and title each collum. Once collum title 'Like' and the other 'Dislike', then under the 'dislike' title I want you to put down what you don't like about yourself. Then, for each thing you don't like about yourself, think of one thing that you DO like about yourself and list them under 'likes'. So if you find 5 things about yourself that you don't like, your challenge is to find 5 things about yourself that you do like.

I bet you start to think of all your good points, and you can write them down too. When you read back your list to yourself I think you should feel proud of yourself to have grown up to be a good woman of morals and values. For Sure!

 

[janemariesayed]

That is the ultimate question isn't it? Why can't we just be normal? I don't know I just don't know. That's the reason I feel so down all the time. The love for my life is gone. I have a hard time understanding why. In my opinion I believe we are being punished for something we've done in a past life. But, then again I can't really say. I was just born , that's all. What did we do? I just can't justify this.

If we have been reborn into this life from a previous one, and if we are receiving negative energy bouncing back to us then I suppose we have deserved it in a sense. I have no idea why I've been through all that I have. If we are born innocent then God isn't a very fair Dude!

It has to be what we have sent out before. Before living this life. The wrong doings that we may have done. If you look in history it is littered with murders and adultery, theft and manipulation. If what the witches say, what we send out comes back threefold then reincarnation could well be the reason for our sufferings.

So what to do? I don't know the answer to that one. I'm trying to sort my head out to be ready for the next life if there is one. If there is I want to be vibrating at a nice high frequency so it'll be a better life.

Reincarnation is the only way I can justify it. So it is up to me to forgive myself and work towards healing. With healing comes a great and happy life!