I feel like killing myself.

[fjew8t43j03rg03]

I feel worthless right now. All I do is indulge in shitty activities and never contribute to my family. I don't work or anything I just lay on my ass and escape from reality. I hide under my covers and make music and text people while everything piles up. I can't do this anymore it feels like theres no fixing this simply because it feels like I don't want this to be fixed. I want this to be over I want to stop causing issues for other people. it already feels as if I don't exist as is. idk what to do anymore im throwing a pity party to complete strangers this is how sad I've gotten

 

[Jonathan123]

I feel worthless right now. All I do is indulge in shitty activities and never contribute to my family. I don't work or anything I just lay on my ass and escape from reality. I hide under my covers and make music and text people while everything piles up. I can't do this anymore it feels like theres no fixing this simply because it feels like I don't want this to be fixed. I want this to be over I want to stop causing issues for other people. it already feels as if I don't exist as is. idk what to do anymore im throwing a pity party to complete strangers this is how sad I've gotten

No one is ever worthless. We all have something to offer, yes even you contrary to what you may feel. You are in the throes of a depression and I strongly advise you to get professional help. I see you are from the USA so I can't advice you on organisations that can help. Anxiety is so often followed by depression. Have you talked to your doctor? You must get help. Going it alone is not an option.

 

[fjew8t43j03rg03]

No one is ever worthless. We all have something to offer, yes even you contrary to what you may feel. You are in the throes of a depression and I strongly advise you to get professional help. I see you are from the USA so I can't advice you on organisations that can help. Anxiety is so often followed by depression. Have you talked to your doctor? You must get help. Going it alone is not an option.

I talk to a therapist

 

[Mark G]

I feel worthless right now. All I do is indulge in shitty activities and never contribute to my family. I don't work or anything I just lay on my ass and escape from reality. I hide under my covers and make music and text people while everything piles up. I can't do this anymore it feels like theres no fixing this simply because it feels like I don't want this to be fixed. I want this to be over I want to stop causing issues for other people. it already feels as if I don't exist as is. idk what to do anymore im throwing a pity party to complete strangers this is how sad I've gotten

What keeps you from contributing? Where does the dislike of yourself lie? Remember, taking your own life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Has the therapist narrowed down where the problems/thinking errors are?

 

[fjew8t43j03rg03]

What keeps you from contributing? Where does the dislike of yourself lie? Remember, taking your own life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Has the therapist narrowed down where the problems/thinking errors are?

Yeah he said he believes that I have a super negative perspective on life in general and that I don't give myself enough credit as I should

 

[Cuchculan]

It is easy to be hard on ourselves. Probably something we do more often than we like to admit. We can look at our lives and see negative things, if we are in a negative frame of mind. We pick up on the smallest things. We make them much bigger and blame ourselves on them. Even things that might have nothing got to do with us. We might see it as been about us. Thus looking at it the wrong way. Just another negative thing in our lives. Thus we look for things. As well as the things we actually have going on. Case of looking around closely and even finding one positive thing? I would say making this post, like you did, was a positive thing. To talk out how you are feeling. I am sure there are loads more. Do you like music? Gaming? Reading? Must be some things you like to do. They would go in the positive pile. Easier to see any negative things. How about a few positive things?

 

[suzzeeb]

When you are depressed you sometimes don't have the energy to "fix" things. Give yourself a break. Maybe start by doing one or two small things every day that have been piling up. I know how it feels to not have any desire to do anything and just sit on the couch and watch tv, but I try to do even a few things that I think need to be done and sometimes find I can keep going and then at least feel a sense that I accomplished something for the day. I tend to be super negative so I know it's hard to see the good, but there is always something good going on even if it seems small.

 

[Camden]

Please remember you are loved and you live a beautiful and meaningful life! Nothing is worth killing yourself over. Please seek help as soon as you can and remember you live an amazing life no matter what. I’ll say my prayers for you. Remember you are loved and that Jesus loves you.

USA Suicide Prevention Hotline: 800-273-8255.

 

[Mark G]

Yeah he said he believes that I have a super negative perspective on life in general and that I don't give myself enough credit as I should

Why do you think this is the case?

 

[fjew8t43j03rg03]

Why do you think this is the case?

I think a lot of it is rooted from self hatred

 

[cheer_mom]

How are you doing?

 

[Iona]

I feel worthless right now. All I do is indulge in shitty activities and never contribute to my family. I don't work or anything I just lay on my ass and escape from reality. I hide under my covers and make music and text people while everything piles up. I can't do this anymore it feels like theres no fixing this simply because it feels like I don't want this to be fixed. I want this to be over I want to stop causing issues for other people. it already feels as if I don't exist as is. idk what to do anymore im throwing a pity party to complete strangers this is how sad I've gotten

Pretty much everything you’ve just said I can relate to (although didn’t quite understand the party comment!)
If you ever want to chat privately and feel better with a one to one conversation then I’m available

 

[fjew8t43j03rg03]

How are you doing?

Sorry for not replying but as of now not well

Pretty much everything you’ve just said I can relate to (although didn’t quite understand the party comment!)
If you ever want to chat privately and feel better with a one to one conversation then I’m available

Sure it would help a lot to have someone to talk to

 

[davide.h]

In 2014 I was going through a depressive phase. I started doing neurofeedback and it changed everything. It didn't fix everything after the first session but I was patient and kept going. I can't explain how or why it did but I've been recommending it to people ever since.