I don’t think it’s going to ever get better...
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I completely understand was just there 2 to 3 months ago. I finally went to the doctor and was prescribed Lexapro. Although the anxiety is still present at times it really has helped. Not a fan of taking any meds but I was at a point of desperation. With the medication and some therapy it has improved a lot. The biggest positive for me has been a very supportive wife and daughter and great friends to talk to. That really helps. Hang in there it will get better
When my anxiety got bad I started writing in a small note pad about what was making me anxious. I would then go back and read it. If it was something I couldn't control I wouldn’t worry about it. If I could control it or fix it, I would do my best to fix it.
Has CBT worked for anyone at all? It only works for when l practise and challenge my thoughts daily. Like l have this scab on my foot that is healing very slowly and l am freaking out. Trying to use other thoughts to contract the current thoughts l have, but believing my counteracting thoughts it very difficult, so l try to stick to the facts only, which kind of helps.
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Thank you everyone for all the replies. It’s so hard to get through each day. And on the weekends I’m toast. Like this weekend I literally laid in bed. The entire weekend because I didn’t want to do any activities that would make the day go by fast because then that would mean I would be closer to having to go to work Monday morning. It’s Monday morning now and I got the cool anxiety tingles about work in my chest. And the tightness. I woke up God knows how many times throughout the night anxious about work and making up situations in my head that weren’t even happening. More like potential stressful situations at work. I hate it. But I can’t even sit here and promise myself that if I had a different job that wouldn’t be happening. I just don’t know anymore. I feel so far gone. Like I’m terrified of my anxiety. I’m terrified I’m gonna end up on disability because of it. Like I genuinely have a hard time everyday getting to my job. I always get there and stick out the day. I never call out no matter how bad I feel. But it’s like my anxiety kicks the crap out of me daily. So I have no energy for anything else. Then I get really sad because I don’t actually live my life. Then I’m too anxious to feel strong enough to do anything about it. And then I wish I had strong supportive people in my life to help me, because I don’t have that. It’s just such a struggle constantly. It’s so frustrating more than anything. I work my ass off constantly just to feel like absolute s h i t constantly.
You have plenty of people on this sight that will stand in the gap for you and be supportive. I felt the exact same way. Life had really become hard to do. No matter how dark it seems there is light. It seems to me that the goal of anxiety is to make you give up.
I have lived with severe anxiety most of my life since I was 13. I have been to do many doctors and most were not helpful. My current psychiatrist won't prescribe anything other than worthless meds that don't even touch it foe what he said are "addiction issues". He told me that since opioid issue has become a problem, Dr's are prescribing less including benzos. I used to take clonazepam on a prn basis while taking meds for maintenance. I wake up, if I even sleep, in full blown panic attacks. I lay here at night and can't sleep and when I see the sun coming up, it worsens the attack. I had to quit working as my job was really causing panic attacks. It certainly didn't help that my son committed suicide last year a year ago yesterday. It ruined me financially and emotionally. I can't go out most days as I am scared to death, of what I don't know. Now we have this virus to worry about. I love on the 10th floor of my building and some days I can't go near the window as I'm afraid somehow that I will fall out the window. Mind you I have no desire to jump. I have to ask my kids to reassure me that everything will be alright. I have hardly even seen them since this whole thing started. There are days that I wish I didn't wake up. Other than people who suffer from severe anxiety, no one knows what it's like. I have a therapist but it just doesn't do any good. I mean, how can you talk about the same things over and over and feel any better? Now we have to talk by phone because the facility is shut down. I have been hospitalised 6 Times over the last year. Even then I don't feel safe. I wish for once I could have a good day where I'm not in panic mode.
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So, what did they do for you?