I’m so tired of anxiety

[Anxietyamy]

I’m so tired of being anxious. Having a streak of good days and then suddenly feeling like I’m under attack. Running through apocalyptic scenarios in my head all the time, imaging what I would do in the worst of situations. Feeling so imbalanced, so unstable. Like how can people around me - my partner, my friends - support this. It’s so complicated. It’s so exhausting. I can’t seem to find a consistent way to deal with it and I’m tired of relying on others, of inflicting this instability and anxiety on them. I think my anxiety is mostly social. For instance, I always feel more stable when I am not in a relationship. Because then it’s just me right. But with a partner, I’m constantly wondering why they’re staying, when they will leave, expecting it to become boring or annoying at some point. And my partner is freaking gold.
Maybe I’m just venting. Maybe tomorrow it’ll all be better. But I don’t know what is too much too ask, and I don’t know how to not become the unstable person who makes life hard on everyone. I’ve tried therapy, meditation, I still do these things. I’m just tired of the way my brain works.

 

[Jonathan123]

I’m so tired of being anxious. Having a streak of good days and then suddenly feeling like I’m under attack. Running through apocalyptic scenarios in my head all the time, imaging what I would do in the worst of situations. Feeling so imbalanced, so unstable. Like how can people around me - my partner, my friends - support this. It’s so complicated. It’s so exhausting. I can’t seem to find a consistent way to deal with it and I’m tired of relying on others, of inflicting this instability and anxiety on them. I think my anxiety is mostly social. For instance, I always feel more stable when I am not in a relationship. Because then it’s just me right. But with a partner, I’m constantly wondering why they’re staying, when they will leave, expecting it to become boring or annoying at some point. And my partner is freaking gold.
Maybe I’m just venting. Maybe tomorrow it’ll all be better. But I don’t know what is too much too ask, and I don’t know how to not become the unstable person who makes life hard on everyone. I’ve tried therapy, meditation, I still do these things. I’m just tired of the way my brain works.

Hi There, and Welcome. If you want a place to unload you are right here. No one will criticise or judge. We have all had enough of that! Everyone on this site knows just how you feel. Anxiety is often regarded as worse than a physical illness because that can be dealt with, but anxiety is so mysterious and sometime unfathomable as there appears to be no reason for it. May I suggest you stop thinking about others for the moment and how they feel about you? Unless they have had anxiety they will never know what it's like. You say it's complicated. It's not really because it all comes down to that four letter word FEAR. Fear is always at the root of anxiety. No fear no anxiety. So what are you afraid of? It sounds as if you are over concerned about what others think about you. People who love you will not get tired of you. A true friend will sit and hold your hand in times of crisis and give comfort.
Now as to what to do about it. First of all read the many posts on here from those who, like you, are suffering, and you may find some comfort in knowing you are not alone. You have GAD, Generalised Anxiety Disorder. Now it's important you accept that because you can then begin to recover. If we know we have a problem it can be corrected. Look on Amazon and get some books by Dr. Claire Weekes. She was regarded as an authority on GAD. You are right, maybe it will be better tomorrow, but that is running before you can walk. Give yourself time and try and accept for the moment how you feel. No fighting or struggling with 'IT'. Calm acceptance can work wonders. Take care.

 

[bigjetplane23]

I’m fed up with this life too…

 

[Pandanae]

It's upsetting. I think EVERYONE one on this fourm agrees with you. We are all tired of Anxiety. The worse part is that it always seems to strike just when things have been going really well. I've been having a pretty anxious week myself. Only advice I can give is try to ride through it. Try to breath and try to find a place that grounds you so that you aren't spinning around with anxious thoughts in your head. When your anxious you are worried and afried and that is valid, but try to remember you are probably more than ok. Think of things that make you feel safe...do something that will help you feel balanced again like reading a book or something.

 

[Yalyn]

Tired of anxiety, YES! I was just thinking this week about how amazing my life could be if I could cure myself of anxiety. I've been in a bad anxiety phase for months now and I just want to feel normal (for more than a day or two, which is about the most relief I get anymore).