I’m so far gone.

[naboudre]

My resting heart rate has gone from 60bpm to 90bpm.
I’m getting an MRI tomorrow because of dizziness, blurred vision and tinnitus. Don’t google those symptoms together... but the possible diagnosis is terrifying.
I’m terrified to fall asleep, but I’m so tired.
How do you all overcome this? I’m drowning. I have a 16 month old that I need to care for.

 

[Bobnnat]

While under regular circumstances HA sufferers should try to avoid testing unless suggested by your doctor, given what we are all going through, there just is no time for additional worry, beyond what 6+ billion of us are already worrying about. So, get the MRI. It will be normal and this fear can totally end. It must totally end for your sanity once that test comes back normal.

BTW you'll no doubt watch the clock for a call telling you the results. I can assure you that if the radiologist sees anything really serious when they scan the MRI (done before they let you leave), you will be told to contact your doctor before you walk out the door. So the fact that they say nothing and you leave should 99.9% calm you. I know it won't, but it should. Also, one reason the radiologist looks over the scan before you leave is to make certain the person doing the scan captured all appropriate views. If they tell you wait, we need additional views, that is common and you shouldn't freak out.

 

[naboudre]

While under regular circumstances HA sufferers should try to avoid testing unless suggested by your doctor, given what we are all going through, there just is no time for additional worry, beyond what 6+ billion of us are already worrying about. So, get the MRI. It will be normal and this fear can totally end. It must totally end for your sanity once that test comes back normal.

BTW you'll no doubt watch the clock for a call telling you the results. I can assure you that if the radiologist sees anything really serious when they scan the MRI (done before they let you leave), you will be told to contact your doctor before you walk out the door. So the fact that they say nothing and you leave should 99.9% calm you. I know it won't, but it should. Also, one reason the radiologist looks over the scan before you leave is to make certain the person doing the scan captured all appropriate views. If they tell you wait, we need additional views, that is common and you shouldn't freak out.

Thank you for this! I had an MRI done about 7 years ago and I was lucky enough to have my neurologist call me back the day of to tell me that everything was fine and to relax. That helped me sooooo much. I’m hoping the same happens tomorrow. I’m a mess, but your comment has certainly caused me to settle a little. I appreciate you.

 

[MakUSA]

I am hoping for the best for you tomorrow. Can't wait for your comment in here with some positive news.

 

[URfine]

All of those symptoms are also anxiety related. The more worked up you get , the more things go haywire. You are fine

 

[Jennifernormam]

I’m at a point where I just need this HA to settle out. It truly affects my daily life in ways I hate to even write out. Those things are all just floating around in brain. All of “this” started with a series of events which led to medications providers would start me on which would lead to complications suggesting I shouldn’t have continued those meds; nonetheless, they continue.....25-ish ER trips later, almost all because of my anxiety and panic making sure I don’t die.....

I don’t know how to dig myself from this hole. I’m a Christian and I pray to God to just help me keep digging....but I’m just not there yet and I only see it getting worse, about 2.5 years in


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[naboudre]

I’m at a point where I just need this HA to settle out. It truly affects my daily life in ways I hate to even write out. Those things are all just floating around in brain. All of “this” started with a series of events which led to medications providers would start me on which would lead to complications suggesting I shouldn’t have continued those meds; nonetheless, they continue.....25-ish ER trips later, almost all because of my anxiety and panic making sure I don’t die.....

I don’t know how to dig myself from this hole. I’m a Christian and I pray to God to just help me keep digging....but I’m just not there yet and I only see it getting worse, about 2.5 years in


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We are much the same. Except - I’m about 19 years in. It started when I was 12. It waxes and wanes every now and then and I feel fantastic. But with everything going on recently plus all this dizziness, I’m a mess.
I’m newly born again Christian (born and raised Catholic; lost my faith during my 20s) and looking to find my faith. I’m very guilty of not leaning on Him when in time of need.

 

[naboudre]

MRI is done... now we wait. But they let me leave the hospital so I’m assuming that’s a good sign.

 

[MakUSA]

You are going to be alright, mark my words. I am here for you, if you want to chat.

 

[PRguru_cfj]

I'm new to this site and I guess my troubles are as bad but I would like to say that you ate not alone. I can't complain about much but ever since I started collage I been bouncing from this to that and doing everything I can to keep thiease shity feeling from going out. My parents sat it's okay but I always feel like I am a burden to them. I do good in school but I always feel like thease short victories will not last. All thease lifes stuff really gets to me sometimes and I can't sleep right at night. My anxiety comes from school and general life. When something stressful happens I get into a sad rage and god forbid I do something horrible just because I'm stressed out. I got a bad grade on one tji g , JUST ONE and it messed me up for the entire semester. I always feel so worthless and it makes me sick that I have an amazing family and I don't feel like they need me. I work hard but it is never enough. I succeed but through a rush job and dumb luck. I feel like days go by so fast and I'm just here doing nothing but be a speck not worth love or anything.vi talk about them I turn into raging animal of disgust and sadness and become a crying mess of self hate and loathing. I haven't fo through with know of the self destructive behavior, it's like my body just stops me and pushes me. Even now it's late and night and I'm afraid to sleep and not wake up or have anyone of value to call my own. I get good grades, help my family out when ever I can, and try to live decently. But I still feel like a shity person who has done nothing but be a burden when I should have been someone who looks tall. But I feel like I'm nothing and I'm angery that I think so. I just want to give up, but yet my body won't let me end it.

We are much the same. Except - I’m about 19 years in. It started when I was 12. It waxes and wanes every now and then and I feel fantastic. But with everything going on recently plus all this dizziness, I’m a mess.
I’m newly born again Christian (born and raised Catholic; lost my faith during my 20s) and looking to find my faith. I’m very guilty of not leaning on Him when in time of need.

I have the same faith problems as you I see so much bad stuff around me and it makes me feel like no matter how many times I pray I never feel like he's listening some times. Hell people makes me believe even less so. It's like you have to people in your head saying shits gonna get bad and even if stuff goes well you still feel like stuff will go wrong. Iylts like if I give I to the feeling I would become a monster and throw everything I work for. I can't sleep without the tv as light any more. But you sound like more brave to me at least. You can belif in gids or other people thr tge bluefbthat you must always carry is in your self. My mind and emotions al ways tell me to lash out and do somthing to get rid if this loneliness, regret and anxity. But I have to start put faith in my self and set my self striat before I believe in another. Find a source of strength you can depend on and fight. It hurts I know I fought its since I was 12. But it will hurt more if you just give up and trust me I KNOW.

I'm new to this site and I guess my troubles are as bad but I would like to say that you ate not alone. I can't complain about much but ever since I started collage I been bouncing from this to that and doing everything I can to keep thiease shity feeling from going out. My parents sat it's okay but I always feel like I am a burden to them. I do good in school but I always feel like thease short victories will not last. All thease lifes stuff really gets to me sometimes and I can't sleep right at night. My anxiety comes from school and general life. When something stressful happens I get into a sad rage and god forbid I do something horrible just because I'm stressed out. I got a bad grade on one tji g , JUST ONE and it messed me up for the entire semester. I always feel so worthless and it makes me sick that I have an amazing family and I don't feel like they need me. I work hard but it is never enough. I succeed but through a rush job and dumb luck. I feel like days go by so fast and I'm just here doing nothing but be a speck not worth love or anything.vi talk about them I turn into raging animal of disgust and sadness and become a crying mess of self hate and loathing. I haven't fo through with know of the self destructive behavior, it's like my body just stops me and pushes me. Even now it's late and night and I'm afraid to sleep and not wake up or have anyone of value to call my own. I get good grades, help my family out when ever I can, and try to live decently. But I still feel like a shity person who has done nothing but be a burden when I should have been someone who looks tall. But I feel like I'm nothing and I'm angery that I think so. I just want to give up, but yet my body won't let me end it.

I have the same faith problems as you I see so much bad stuff around me and it makes me feel like no matter how many times I pray I never feel like he's listening some times. Hell people makes me believe even less so. It's like you have to people in your head saying shits gonna get bad and even if stuff goes well you still feel like stuff will go wrong. Iylts like if I give I to the feeling I would become a monster and throw everything I work for. I can't sleep without the tv as light any more. But you sound like more brave to me at least. You can belif in gids or other people thr tge bluefbthat you must always carry is in your self. My mind and emotions al ways tell me to lash out and do somthing to get rid if this loneliness, regret and anxity. But I have to start put faith in my self and set my self striat before I believe in another. Find a source of strength you can depend on and fight. It hurts I know I fought its since I was 12. But it will hurt more if you just give up and trust me I KNOW.

Thank you for anyone who would listen from a loser like me who fights just it

I’m at a point where I just need this HA to settle out. It truly affects my daily life in ways I hate to even write out. Those things are all just floating around in brain. All of “this” started with a series of events which led to medications providers would start me on which would lead to complications suggesting I shouldn’t have continued those meds; nonetheless, they continue.....25-ish ER trips later, almost all because of my anxiety and panic making sure I don’t die.....

I don’t know how to dig myself from this hole. I’m a Christian and I pray to God to just help me keep digging....but I’m just not there yet and I only see it getting worse, about 2.5 years in


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You bbn don't need pills you need some one to believe. Not just talking about god. I try to live for other and stead of just live for my self. I lost a couple people resently and it opened my heart and my eyes to think my anxiety piles incompariosn to grief they felt. In if it hurts and drives you mad. Find somthing to channel the anxity or hellnmabye and ear to talk to. Cuase from experience it cheats your self out of life. Take it forma loser like me. You are. Better than me for going out trying to get help
Also don't let the monster win. Fight it with everything you got even if you don't win. Which only true defeating my b b eyes is death and not today for me or you guys/girls.(sorry if it sounded awkward, its just my sense of mortality).

 

[naboudre]

My doctor has been too busy to look into results. So, I went and picked them up from the hospital myself.
I have a 3mm lesion that is without significance. I’ve spoken to a couple neuro friends that think it’s just normal wear and tear on the brain, and I’m fine.

 

[Kittyluv]

Glad to hear you’re ok!

 

[MakUSA]

My doctor has been too busy to look into results. So, I went and picked them up from the hospital myself.
I have a 3mm lesion that is without significance. I’ve spoken to a couple neuro friends that think it’s just normal wear and tear on the brain, and I’m fine.

Very good news, I am glad that you are ok.