Suzannenightmares
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I thought I had won the tug of war with this issue, but of late, it has reared its ugly head and boy, anxiety is hard to control.
I found a small lump under arms, when shaving and panic surged through me: CANCER. I could barely continue with my shower and felt like hundred life times, to get out, dry myself and check out the lump.
It is not at all big, but feels huge and so, I did the worst thing possible and started to look it up on the internet and of course, cancer was the top topic and said if it is not painful, there is a good chance it is cancerious. This lead me to go into surreal mode and yet, I actually know the truth about cancer, but still the blasted hypochondia hit me.
I have cancer; I have cancer, kept echoing in my head and I felt sick to the stomach.
Of course, I looked more closely and saw there is a dot in the middle and so, searched that and found that it could well be to do with shaving, but this "if it is not painful" you need to seek medical attention, kept shouting at me.
It is rather soft and I read that cancer lumps are hard, so that calmed me down a bit. It gets bigger. So, far it is staying very small, so that is a good sign.
But my body is reacting now and I can almost see my body with cancer overtaking my good cells, but by logic, I should not get cancer, because I have a strong immune system and have honey every day. I have completely stopped eating bad sugars. Bad sugars cause cancer cells to flourish.
I have calmed down a bit since yesterday, but feel a sense of lagging. It is like I want to jump to a week's time, just to say: ahh, it didn't grow any bigger!
Anyway, joined here, in the hope to find like minded ones.
I found a small lump under arms, when shaving and panic surged through me: CANCER. I could barely continue with my shower and felt like hundred life times, to get out, dry myself and check out the lump.
It is not at all big, but feels huge and so, I did the worst thing possible and started to look it up on the internet and of course, cancer was the top topic and said if it is not painful, there is a good chance it is cancerious. This lead me to go into surreal mode and yet, I actually know the truth about cancer, but still the blasted hypochondia hit me.
I have cancer; I have cancer, kept echoing in my head and I felt sick to the stomach.
Of course, I looked more closely and saw there is a dot in the middle and so, searched that and found that it could well be to do with shaving, but this "if it is not painful" you need to seek medical attention, kept shouting at me.
It is rather soft and I read that cancer lumps are hard, so that calmed me down a bit. It gets bigger. So, far it is staying very small, so that is a good sign.
But my body is reacting now and I can almost see my body with cancer overtaking my good cells, but by logic, I should not get cancer, because I have a strong immune system and have honey every day. I have completely stopped eating bad sugars. Bad sugars cause cancer cells to flourish.
I have calmed down a bit since yesterday, but feel a sense of lagging. It is like I want to jump to a week's time, just to say: ahh, it didn't grow any bigger!
Anyway, joined here, in the hope to find like minded ones.
