Homesickness & passage of time

[Kaynil]

Do you ever get homesick?
Do you feel depressed thinking about times that won't come back?

I have been outside the country I was born and saw me grow for 7 years. I left my brother a teen and now he is an adult.

I was full of hope. I thought that even if it took me a few years to see them again I would have a lot to share. Now it brings me to the verge of tears.

Time waits for no one. All the pets have died. Relatives have died. Two of those family members were healthy and I had no idea I wouldn't be able to see them ever again. One of them I was very close with.

I keep forgetting about some situations changing around the house for them and every year that passes makes me feel like even if I can save up money to visit next year, by the time I go, it is already going to be too late and I won't even find what I am missing because my mind is stuck with 2010.

Thinking about it is a quick way to send me to feel the blues. Do you ever had a situation like thst where you felt homesick or missed old things that are not coming back?

 

[janemariesayed]

After returning from Egypt two years ago I do understand what you are saying. I lived there for nine years and miss it terribly. I did go through a rough time over there, though, as they were going through a revolution in the latter years. I can't bear it when a thought comes to me now. I am avoiding thoughts like the plague. Thoughts and memories are torturing me. There was an attempt on my life out there and I was left for dead at the side of the road while they went and cleared out all my possessions in my flat. I can't bring myself to think about it. I'm going through a bad time with it of late and wonder if I have PTSD from it. I get flashbacks and bad dreams. The voice I was hearing has stopped now. Instead of hearing a voice telling me to do things, I just have a feeling instead.

I hate the thought that I left Egypt, I miss my friends and life that I had out there. Still, there is nothing I can do about it now. I just have to get on with it. Therapy may help me, I don't know. Fingers crossed huh!

 

[Decentlady]

After returning from Egypt two years ago I do understand what you are saying. I lived there for nine years and miss it terribly. I did go through a rough time over there, though, as they were going through a revolution in the latter years. I can't bear it when a thought comes to me now. I am avoiding thoughts like the plague. Thoughts and memories are torturing me. There was an attempt on my life out there and I was left for dead at the side of the road while they went and cleared out all my possessions in my flat. I can't bring myself to think about it. I'm going through a bad time with it of late and wonder if I have PTSD from it. I get flashbacks and bad dreams. The voice I was hearing has stopped now. Instead of hearing a voice telling me to do things, I just have a feeling instead.

I hate the thought that I left Egypt, I miss my friends and life that I had out there. Still, there is nothing I can do about it now. I just have to get on with it. Therapy may help me, I don't know. Fingers crossed huh!

Why can't you go back and restart afresh. Now that thungs have aettled down. I was actively connected with a friend of mine in Egypt during that phase. I must say it was a nightmare and people weren't sure if the next moment. Thankfully all that is over.

Perhaps you could try to reconnect?

 

[janemariesayed]

Sometime in the future I will go back and see everyone, but for now, I think I have to deal with things here. I need to face my past as it rears its ugly head from time to time and I fall right backwards. Someone tried to kill me while I was over there. They ran me down and left me for dead at the side of the road. Took my bag and went into my flat and stole all my belongings. I knew the person who did it too. He wanted to kill everyone who knew his girlfriend so she would have no one around her. And he wanted to start with me! He wanted to control her and he thought he would start with her closest friend. I am still getting nightmares about it and flashbacks which are really hard to deal with.