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High Blood Pressure: I am going to die of a stroke or heart attack

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I am a 29 year old male who's had on and off health anxiety for about a decade.

It all started in high school, when I was maybe 16 years old. The nurse measured my blood pressure at the clinic during one visit and said "120 over [I forgot the lower number] and said "Oh my, why is this high?" Ever since that experience, I've always been scared of getting my blood pressure reading.
Over the years though, I've had some normal readings between 110 to 115/[x].

Back in June, when I went to the hospital for some lesions, I kept thinking to myself "Oh no, this is the clinic where the nurse gets my blood pressure reading first."
As the nurse was pumping the device, I kept repeating to myself "Please, please, please relax..." even though my heart wasn't pumping. Lo and behold, the reading was 160/80! I was so embarrassed about it as the nurse said it was high in front of other patients.

When it was my time to see the doctor who later diagnosed me with chickenpox, I mentioned to her about the blood pressure reading. I asked if she could take it again and she did. The reading was 140/80. It was still high. The doctor didn't seem worried about it and said, given my age and weight (160 lbs, standing at 5'9) she wouldn't worry about it. She sort of laughed and said it could be white coat hypertension (a condition which I am aware of). She said I could go for a 24-hour monitor test to really find out, but she didn't really recommend it immediately.

It's funny because around two to three weeks before that chickenpox diagnosis, I was at our office's clinic because I had some tummy ache because of some mild food poisoning. A GP saw me and, as part of the medical routine, took my blood pressure which was 115/80 something. Normal.

Way back in 2015, I had a similar experience at a hospital. The nurse took my blood pressure which had a high reading. I think it was in the 140/80 levels. Then the doctor who then saw me was concerned about it. In the middle of the consultation, "You know, let me take your blood pressure again." The reading was still high at around 130/[x]. After 10 mins or so, just when the consultation was about to end she said, "Dear, just to check, let's take your blood pressure one more time." The final reading was 115/80 something, to which she said. "There you go!"

Just this week, I was bitten by a dog and had to take anti-rabies shots at the ER. The nurse took my BP and it was 140/80. I know it's a stressful event, but still. Then earlier today, I just had my follow up shots at the ER and the nurse recorded it at 160/80. Jesus. :(

I'm thinking of getting an appointment with a cardiologist in January when the insurance kicks in but I feel that I will die of a stroke in my 30s or anytime soon. :(
Hypertension does run in my mother side so there's that to worry about. :(
 

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I deal with the same thing you do. Im 40 now and when i was 28 i went to the dr for strep and my pressure was 140 over 85 and the dr told me if i didnt go on medicine i was a walking stroke or heart attack. Ever since then i have extreme anxiety about getting my pressure taken. I do take it at home myself and its always perfect but its always high when a nurse or dr takes it. Its been 12 years and im still alive so i think u will be ok
 

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I deal with the same thing you do. Im 40 now and when i was 28 i went to the dr for strep and my pressure was 140 over 85 and the dr told me if i didnt go on medicine i was a walking stroke or heart attack. Ever since then i have extreme anxiety about getting my pressure taken. I do take it at home myself and its always perfect but its always high when a nurse or dr takes it. Its been 12 years and im still alive so i think u will be ok
Thank you for your response.

Did you ever go on medicine and are you still taking them?

I envy you that you still get normal readings at home. I doubt I will ever get mine normal even at home because my mind has wrapped itself around the concept of taking my BP regardless of the environment. :(
 

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Anytime I walk into a doctors office my BP always goes up, it never fails. High BP does run on my dads side so a couple years ago I bought my own BP machine and I check it at home frequently to keep an eye on it. Have you had your cholesterol checked? I’ve talked about my BP a lot with my doctor and know I will probably have to go on meds eventually. Even if you’re at a good weight and you work out it can just be hereditary. The more anxious you are the higher hour BP will be too!
 

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your blood pressures really aren't that bad. ideal? no, but you're far from being a walking heart attack. it is also not uncommon to experience higher readings in the doctor's office especially if you have anxiety surrounding medical appointments.
 
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Anytime I walk into a doctors office my BP always goes up, it never fails. High BP does run on my dads side so a couple years ago I bought my own BP machine and I check it at home frequently to keep an eye on it. Have you had your cholesterol checked? I’ve talked about my BP a lot with my doctor and know I will probably have to go on meds eventually. Even if you’re at a good weight and you work out it can just be hereditary. The more anxious you are the higher hour BP will be too!
Thank you. Yes, I'm having a full blood chem check up including cholesterol. I am expecting it to be elevated because I've been dining out a lot lately. Same with my uric acid. Now I'm anxious about the results.

How have you been managing your BP? And how old are you? Thank you.
your blood pressures really aren't that bad. ideal? no, but you're far from being a walking heart attack. it is also not uncommon to experience higher readings in the doctor's office# especially if you have anxiety surrounding medical appointments.
Sigh. I know deep inside anxiety can cause it to shoot up but I sometimes feel my readings are too much to be anxiety related. Anyway, I just had my doctor order a full blood panel. I expect my cholesterol and sodium levels to be up. I wish it's not too late. :(
 

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I have been on medicine since 2008. One of my biggest mistakes was not getting a second opinion. I fell for the drs scare tactic and have now been on pills for over 10 years. After a hospital stay in april i found a good dr and am wokring towards getting off the pills with exercise and diet and also the dr understands my anxiety about getting my pressure taken
 

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I have been on medicine since 2008. One of my biggest mistakes was not getting a second opinion. I fell for the drs scare tactic and have now been on pills for over 10 years. After a hospital stay in april i found a good dr and am wokring towards getting off the pills with exercise and diet and also the dr understands my anxiety about getting my pressure taken
Thank you.

I'm sorry you feel that way. May I know if your new doctor plans to completely take you off the meds? Are you even allowed to do that abruptly? Sorry, I'm really new to all of this.
 

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Thank you.

I'm sorry you feel that way. May I know if your new doctor plans to completely take you off the meds? Are you even allowed to do that abruptly? Sorry, I'm really new to all of this.

you're pretty young to be worrying about this stuff. I've been on meds for 10+ years for my bp as well... two to be exact. I've had readings in-office that were so high that they didn't want to let me leave (like, 210/100.) i am fine. i have not had a heart attack or a stroke. i don't even have high cholesterol.

it really does take years of mistreatment to do damage. the body is extremely resilient.
 

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Thank you.

I'm sorry you feel that way. May I know if your new doctor plans to completely take you off the meds? Are you even allowed to do that abruptly? Sorry, I'm really new to all of this.
The plan is to get off them if possible but i do have a family history of high blood pressure and diabetes so there are no guarantees. I just wish my original dr gave me the opportunity to try lifestyle changes before taking meds. Some days the side effects are a little rough
 

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Sounds like White Coat syndrome, basically being around doctors and anxiety about having your BP checked drives your blood pressure up temporarily.
 

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I had similar issue, my BP readings in the Dr office is sometimes high-ish (150/80), that's why I purchase BP monitor, try to get the Omron series 10, its a great one.

I start doing my own BP readings and put the results on line, I use https://ccctracker.com/. My BP readings are 115/65 in average, daily for four months now. I do take medicine, small amount of 2.5mg of calcium blocker and I am dealing with lots of anxiety.

I would suggest you to buy your own BP monitor and start measuring when you wake up, during the day and before you go to aleep, and get the average, if you chose the website that I provided above, that will do the average itself.

All the best.
 

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I would suggest you to buy your own BP monitor and start measuring when you wake up, during the day and before you go to aleep, and get the average, if you chose the website that I provided above, that will do the average itself.

All the best.
i know your intentions are good and you mean well, but i respectfully disagree.

for the majority of people with health anxiety, the simple act of monitoring vitals can become anxiety-inducing behavior on its own. for example... if a person's health worry is over their blood pressure, every time they check it, they may experience anxiety while waiting for the reading. it can cause people to get worked up over even the smallest increases (or decreases) in readings. it can easily become obsessive behavior as well. i've read posts from plenty of people that take their blood pressure dozens of times per day. it didn't start that way, but it got that way pretty quickly.

...and if we're being (brutally) honest, monitoring vitals without a doctor's instruction is not "normal" behavior. it's not something a "healthy" brain would even think of doing... but for folks like us, who obsess and worry over our health, it seems like common sense behavior. if a doctor felt it was medically necessary, they'd instruct the patient to do so. there's actually a name for this in terms of HA... it's called "body vigilance" and it can be very disruptive to managing anxiety.

plus, without a doctor's order, which often includes very specific instructions for taking it, the results are meaningless. blood pressure changes by the second and there are at least a dozen things i can think of that can give false highs, which are harmless other than the fact that they raise a person's anxiety.
 
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i know your intentions are good and you mean well, but i respectfully disagree.

for the majority of people with health anxiety, simply the act of monitoring vitals can become anxiety-inducing behavior on its own. for example... if a person's health worry is over their blood pressure, every time they check it, they may experience anxiety while waiting for the reading. it can cause people to get worked up over even the smallest increases (or decreases) in readings. it can easily become obsessive behavior as well. i've read posts from plenty of people that take their blood pressure dozens of times per day. it didn't start that way, but it got that way pretty quickly.

...and if we're being (brutally) honest, monitoring vitals without a doctor's instruction is not "normal" behavior. it's not something a "healthy" brain would even think of doing... but for folks like us, who obsess and worry over our health, it seems like common sense behavior. if a doctor felt it was medically necessary, they'd instruct the patient to do so. there's actually a name for this in terms of HA... it's called "body vigilance" and it can be very disruptive to managing anxiety.

plus, without a doctor's order, which often includes very specific instructions for taking it, the results are meaningless. blood pressure changes by the second and there are at least a dozen things i can think of that can give false highs, which are harmless other than the fact that they raise a person's anxiety.
I see your point and I agree. The experience I shared helped me but it can go ether way.
 

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I see your point and I agree. The experience I shared helped me but it can go ether way.
for sure and that's awesome that it was beneficial for you. i totally don't fault you for suggesting it.

the concern (for me) is that these types of suggestions seem to have a high potential of making things worse or furthering someone's HA. i mean, they're here asking for help so they're obviously struggling. i have a very similar response when others encourage posters to seek specialists or demand tests. these boards can do more harm than good if we're feeding each other's anxieties and i'd just hate to see that happen.
 
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