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I'm Antonio. I'm 18 and for four years now I've been struggling with really bad anxiety. It's to the point where it interferes with my life. I don't leave the house unless I have to go to school, I hide under my cover so my family doesn't see me, and I don't work. I tend to worry too much about my health and the future and death, and overall I've become a pessimistic person. I only see the negative side of pictures. It seems like I live in some kind of mandela effect though. I think the opposite of what people think of me. People tell me I'm a great person and so much more, but I just cannot bring myself to believe that. That's the best intro I can give. glad to be here.

 

[Sweet T]

Antonio. Do you have a support system? People that you can speak with about your situation? Have you been to the doctor?

it’s a great step that you shared your story here. We have all felt as you have.

 

[fjew8t43j03rg03]

Antonio. Do you have a support system? People that you can speak with about your situation? Have you been to the doctor?

it’s a great step that you shared your story here. We have all felt as you have.

Yeah my family is great and I go to therapy every now and then. I haven't seen an actual doctor yet though. Makes me feel a little better to be in a place where people understand too tbh

 

[Cuchculan]

Welcome to the forum. We have all been were you are right now. It is a case of trying to figure out something you can do to try and improve on your situation. Therapy is a good thing. But in order for it to work the right way, you have to be learning something from it. Which might mean taking steps outside of your comfort zone. Just pushing that little bit harder. It is never easy. Always worth it if you begin to see some results.

 

[Jonathan123]

I'm Antonio. I'm 18 and for four years now I've been struggling with really bad anxiety. It's to the point where it interferes with my life. I don't leave the house unless I have to go to school, I hide under my cover so my family doesn't see me, and I don't work. I tend to worry too much about my health and the future and death, and overall I've become a pessimistic person. I only see the negative side of pictures. It seems like I live in some kind of mandela effect though. I think the opposite of what people think of me. People tell me I'm a great person and so much more, but I just cannot bring myself to believe that. That's the best intro I can give. glad to be here.

Hi. Antonio. That word 'struggle' comes into your post. The natural thing to do is to struggle and fight 'IT'. It's just the opposite to what you should be doing. When you struggle and try to fight it off you increase the flow of adrenaline, the fear hormone. Telling you that your body is reacting normally to fear may not help at the moment. But it is you know! You are fearful of feeling fear. Seeing only the negative side of things is normal in anxiety. We catastrophise about everything. OMG's and 'What if's'. It is not easy to turn things around and begin to think more positively. We can become stuck in the habit of fear. But habits can be broken. Another aspect of anxiety is the loss of self esteem, self worth. People may tell us we are kind and understanding, but we may not think so. All this adds to our already belief that we are worthless. No one is ever that, and the folk on here will testify to it. You could not be in a better place than here where we all understand. Can I suggest you do see your doctor. They deal with so many anxiety cases these days and maybe a little medication would help, but that is a personal choice. Medication can slow you down and give you time to think more clearly about your situation. But the best medicine of all is acceptance. This means you do not add fear to fear. By accepting everything and giving up the struggle you will eventually feel better. Yes you will! Never lose hope. I have seen so many recover that I always have hope no matter how bad a person may seem it's always possible to recover. Stay with us and read other posts to see how others cope.

 

[Nkess2000]

I really feel for you Antonio. I am having a similar struggle right now. I agree with Jonathan123. And small steps can really help. Take a small step toward doing the opposite of what you are doing. Often that step is just to get out of bed. I find myself currently in that situation. Also breathe in, hold it for a few seconds then let the breath out slowly. This helps calm your body along with stretching. If you have a park nearby, take a walk there. A change of space to nature helps too I find.