Good evening (at least it is in the UK!)
My name is Eloise. I'm 48 and live in the East Midlands with my 17 year old son and 3 year old dog. If it was not for them I would live my life inside my 4 walls.
I grew up in a household as one of 4 children (older sister, younger sister and an older brother) and if it wasn't for my Grandpa ('we' moved in with him in 1967. I was born in 1968) who 'favoured' me over the others) I would have been totally lost. I have always not 'fitted in'. At home except for my Grandpa, everyone saw me as 'being wrong'. My dad was an alcoholic and told his friends it was because of me he drank - to clarify, he worked for a bank in the City of London and 'lost' my parents home through gambling and drinking just after my brother was born (2 years BEFORE I was born). All my (young) life, even while at primary school, his spare time was spent at the bookies and the pub. I could list so many instances that with hindsight was drink affected but that will achieve nowt.
So I feel that as a parent in my son I have achieved what I should have been, but couldn't ............ all because of anxiety. My son has manners that we should all attain to; has a Uni/ career plan in place, is loved by everyone he meets (...... but his room is SO untidy!!!!) is going to head out into the'big bad world in August 2017 and is eager for it.
I don't know what I'm trying to say except (maybe) anxiety has blighted my life but we need to ensure it doesn't affect others. I HATE Uni/College visits but sometimes we need to take a deep breath and accept this is for our loved ones. My problems should not be theirs xx
My name is Eloise. I'm 48 and live in the East Midlands with my 17 year old son and 3 year old dog. If it was not for them I would live my life inside my 4 walls.
I grew up in a household as one of 4 children (older sister, younger sister and an older brother) and if it wasn't for my Grandpa ('we' moved in with him in 1967. I was born in 1968) who 'favoured' me over the others) I would have been totally lost. I have always not 'fitted in'. At home except for my Grandpa, everyone saw me as 'being wrong'. My dad was an alcoholic and told his friends it was because of me he drank - to clarify, he worked for a bank in the City of London and 'lost' my parents home through gambling and drinking just after my brother was born (2 years BEFORE I was born). All my (young) life, even while at primary school, his spare time was spent at the bookies and the pub. I could list so many instances that with hindsight was drink affected but that will achieve nowt.
So I feel that as a parent in my son I have achieved what I should have been, but couldn't ............ all because of anxiety. My son has manners that we should all attain to; has a Uni/ career plan in place, is loved by everyone he meets (...... but his room is SO untidy!!!!) is going to head out into the'big bad world in August 2017 and is eager for it.
I don't know what I'm trying to say except (maybe) anxiety has blighted my life but we need to ensure it doesn't affect others. I HATE Uni/College visits but sometimes we need to take a deep breath and accept this is for our loved ones. My problems should not be theirs xx