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[Snapdragon]

Hey, I came across this forum while looking for places where I might be able to meet new people.

I'm a 26 year old enby, who loves games, movies, anime, books, art and writing. I have a pet fish called Fishsticks, and I live in Australia.

Health-wise I have been diagnosed with Major Depression Disorder, General Anxiety Disorder, Avoidant Personality Disorder, Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and Dissociation Disorder.
It sounds like a lot, but they all tie in with each other I guess so it just means I'm an anxious wreck.

I also have Fibromyalgia, which is a chronic pain condition.

Anyway I look forward to meeting you all,

Jamie

 

[JCP]

Hi, Jamie, welcome. Hope this place can help you in some way.

 

[Snapdragon]

@JCP
Hello! It's nice to meet you, and thanks!

 

[JCP]

Not a problem Jamie, nice to meet you as well!

 

[janemariesayed]

Hey, I came across this forum while looking for places where I might be able to meet new people.

I'm a 26 year old enby, who loves games, movies, anime, books, art and writing. I have a pet fish called Fishsticks, and I live in Australia.

Health-wise I have been diagnosed with Major Depression Disorder, General Anxiety Disorder, Avoidant Personality Disorder, Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and Dissociation Disorder.
It sounds like a lot, but they all tie in with each other I guess so it just means I'm an anxious wreck.

I also have Fibromyalgia, which is a chronic pain condition.

Anyway I look forward to meeting you all,

Jamie

Hiya Jamie, nice to meet you and welcome here. It sounds like you suffer from a lot and I am sorry for that. You are in the perfect place here to meet people who understand where you are coming from because a lot of us suffer in a similar way that you are. I am in the process of getting a therapist to help me. I have had a few assessments at various places and this week is the big one! I am finally getting to see a counsellor who is a specialist in abuse cases so I'm hoping that it is going to be good for me and help me to heal, despite knowing that it will not be easy. I'm looking forward to reading your posts and getting to know you.

 

[Snapdragon]

Hey @janemariesayed
It's nice to meet you too, and thanks. Ah it's okay, though I appreciate the compassion. Yeah everyone seems really nice so far; already been lurking throughout the forums.
I'm glad you're getting some help, and I wish you a lot of luck that it all goes well. I'm also getting some more counseling soon, but not sure when yet. Should be good though.
Thanks again, you're awesome.

 

[janemariesayed]

Thank you, and you are awesome too @Snapdragon. How are you going about getting your counselling? I had to go through the doctor because I want it on the national health as I couldn't afford to pay for it privately. I suffered prolonged trauma when I was a little girl, and too much abuse as well. I'm really happy that finally, I have a therapist coming that is a specialist. I really wish you good luck too, especially to get a counsellor that can resonate with your problems and help you through.

 

[Snapdragon]

@janemariesayed
Thanks. Well tbh, I had a mental breakdown of sorts last week and my doctor was worried about me so she referred me to something called "community health." Apparently they offer free counseling services as well as other things. Depending on availability, I may get to see a psychiatrist too. I'm hoping so.

Yeah, it's way too expensive to pay for a private therapist, so it's good if you can get in to a government paid one.

I'm sorry for all you've been through, childhood trauma and abuse is such a difficult thing to live through. My parents were abusive, so that's where a lot of my issues stem from. I was also bullied at school too so I didn't have a very good first impression of other people. It's sometimes hard to be close to people without worrying that maybe I'll be hurt again.

But yeah, I'm happy for you. Finding a good therapist can take time, so again, I really wish you all the best. And thanks again. ^_^

 

[XmasCarol52]

Hi Jamie and welcome,I have anxieties and a panic disorder,bipolar,depression and a mood disorder on top of that i have agoraphobia.We are so glad you are here.I have some physical problems to and i do know when they act up my anxieties get worse then I develop a major panic attack..I just lost my dad last July and I miss him so much and it will be 13 years this July since my husbands passing so it has been really hard for me.

 

[Concernedgal]

Hello snapdragon. Welcome we've all been there, done that so you can talk to us about anything.

 

[Snapdragon]

@XmasCarol52
Hey! Thanks, it's nice to meet you.
Yes, I agree, my mental and physical health often go side-by-side, if one is playing up, the other usually is too. Same with the mental illness, they tend to feed each other until I end up at breaking point. It's not easy.
I'm sorry for you losses, losing one person is difficult enough, losing two, I can't imagine how hard that must be. I'm sure you miss them very much.

@Concernedgal
Hello! Thanks, it'll be nice to be able to be more open about my mental health. I find a lot of people find it difficult to hear so it's nice to find a forum full of understanding people that I can talk to. You all seem so very nice too.

 

[XmasCarol52]

@XmasCarol52
Hey! Thanks, it's nice to meet you.
Yes, I agree, my mental and physical health often go side-by-side, if one is playing up, the other usually is too. Same with the mental illness, they tend to feed each other until I end up at breaking point. It's not easy.
I'm sorry for you losses, losing one person is difficult enough, losing two, I can't imagine how hard that must be. I'm sure you miss them very much.

@Concernedgal
Hello! Thanks, it'll be nice to be able to be more open about my mental health. I find a lot of people find it difficult to hear so it's nice to find a forum full of understanding people that I can talk to. You all seem so very nice too.

HI Snapdragon,It has been so hard for me since my husband died he use to do everything for me.Now i have to do it by myself which makes me nervous.The worse part is I saw him die he fell and when I went to check oh him this is just awful he closed his eyes and I saw he stopped breathing so i had to call 911 i told them i think my husband is dead what a stupid thing to say. I knew he was gone when they arrived they did try to revive him but they couldn't, Then when i went to his funeral there were no calling house just for the family I leaned over to give him a kiss in the coffin ugh and i fell a little.Didnt get hurt but i tried to cover it up. He was only 51 when he passed away he had parkensons.I had to take care of him because he had trouble walking moving around he was a heavy man to,I just feel guilty like it was my fault he died .

 

[janemariesayed]

@janemariesayed
Thanks. Well tbh, I had a mental breakdown of sorts last week and my doctor was worried about me so she referred me to something called "community health." Apparently they offer free counseling services as well as other things. Depending on availability, I may get to see a psychiatrist too. I'm hoping so.

Yeah, it's way too expensive to pay for a private therapist, so it's good if you can get in to a government paid one.

I'm sorry for all you've been through, childhood trauma and abuse is such a difficult thing to live through. My parents were abusive, so that's where a lot of my issues stem from. I was also bullied at school too so I didn't have a very good first impression of other people. It's sometimes hard to be close to people without worrying that maybe I'll be hurt again.

But yeah, I'm happy for you. Finding a good therapist can take time, so again, I really wish you all the best. And thanks again. ^_^

The first appointment is this Thursday coming. I've not had a specialist one before and it's nice that it is held in a women's refuge. It's great that your doctor has referred you to the community health program, you'll be sure to get a good counsellor. Keep asking and they will put you on high priority. I'm not expecting it to be easy, especially having to face it all. Still, I know that it can only help. Good luck for your counselling and let us know how you get on.

 

[Snapdragon]

Firstly, I apologize for my absence. It's been a fairly intense week and I'm feeling a bit low and withdrawn at the moment.

@XmasCarol52
That does sound very overwhelming. Losing support, and on top of that, it being someone you love, must be incredibly difficult.
It's not stupid, it was a traumatic situation and everyone reacts differently. I know for myself I come across as very blunt and cold when I'm overwhelmed, and people think I don't care when I do, I just don't know how to deal with those feelings.
It was not your fault he died, life's just very unfair at times. I can tell you care for him a whole lot.

@janemariesayed
That's good! There's a women's refuge where I live too, and they are all really lovely. I don't go there often as it's a bit out of my way, but if I could go more often I would.

My first appointment at community health didn't go too well if I'm honest. I saw someone who's job was to refer me to the right counseling team and psychiatrist, but she kept invalidating me and treating me like I was inferior and stupid. I felt pretty upset and angry by the end of it, but at least she is referring me to a trauma counselor now, and a psychiatrist. I see the psychiatrist next Thursday. I'm hoping he's a good one.

Yeah, I find it difficult to talk about things too. Especially relating to the trauma and my past. I just don't want to re-live it, and I worry what people think of me where I bring it up. But I've spoken to different counselors in the past, and they're often pretty good and understanding. I mean sometimes there are crap ones too, but usually they're good and are good to chat with.
But yeah, good luck to you as well. I hope it all goes well.

 

[janemariesayed]

Sorry that you've been feeling low this past week. I hope you are feeling a bit better now @Snapdragon That woman who kept invalidating you probably didn't help your condition very much. You can always complain if you want to. Thursday must be a day for counselling! as we have both been on a Thursday!

I went to my appointment and they can only offer me ten weeks counselling. She told me that I would need longer than that as I was a rarity. I don't want to re-live my trauma's either, but I think that it may be the only way forward towards healing.

 

[Snapdragon]

@janemariesayed
I had a better day today, though I admit I spent most of it in bed. I think I needed the rest though.
No, not really. She made me feel like a freak, like I didn't belong anywhere. I already feel isolated from society, like I don't fit in, so it made me feel pretty crap.

Hehe, yeah seems so! 10 weeks isn't too bad, but it would be good if there was no time limits. That extra pressure is never needed
Yeah I guess it's better to talk about it, but when you're ready to. Hopefully it'll work out well.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Snapdragon just asking how are you feeling?