NotJohnCameron
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Hello;
When I was younger (10 years ago), I had extensive tuberculosis in my lungs, scrotum and intestines. This lasted 3 years until it was treated. I am male. I won't go into it - the issues were resolved and I lived happily ever after. They have great medicines for it.
Now, for a month, I've had a UTI which will not heal. They cultured something called psuedomonas in it and gave me 2 weeks of cipro but it hasnt gone away. They seem mystified. Again, I am male. I am not diabetic or anything obvious like that.
I am not scared of it being TB again but I am scared of antibiotic resistance now. It has not gotten better even after 2 weeks on cipro.I am scared they will ask me to do gentamicin and it wont work and I will die, because I googled antibiotics.
It could also be TB again, but there are things which point away from that. And things that point towards it. The tests are out.
Im also scared they wont figure out what is wrong with me or how to fix it and this problem will be with me forever.
These are familiar fears. I sense that the people around me are tired of my complaining but I feel I am doing my best to appear like I am not scared. To them I just have a urinary infection I guess. To me I am constantly uncomfortable and worried sick, too. Painful memories. Lots of unknowns and uncertainty.
I have health anxiety (but I have also authentically been unwell and I am currently unwell). Obviously it is going bezerk in this situation. I am trying not to Google.
I don't want to trigger anyone but the first time around it took them a few years to figure out what was wrong with me. They wouldn't listen to me. Now I have so little faith in what they say.
Just venting I guess. The unknown is really hard to sit with.
The main thing I'm terrified of is that the TB tests wont show anything, so they'll try gentamicin and it wont work and then I will die or live with this forever. Thats my specific health anxiety right now.
When I was younger (10 years ago), I had extensive tuberculosis in my lungs, scrotum and intestines. This lasted 3 years until it was treated. I am male. I won't go into it - the issues were resolved and I lived happily ever after. They have great medicines for it.
Now, for a month, I've had a UTI which will not heal. They cultured something called psuedomonas in it and gave me 2 weeks of cipro but it hasnt gone away. They seem mystified. Again, I am male. I am not diabetic or anything obvious like that.
I am not scared of it being TB again but I am scared of antibiotic resistance now. It has not gotten better even after 2 weeks on cipro.I am scared they will ask me to do gentamicin and it wont work and I will die, because I googled antibiotics.
It could also be TB again, but there are things which point away from that. And things that point towards it. The tests are out.
Im also scared they wont figure out what is wrong with me or how to fix it and this problem will be with me forever.
These are familiar fears. I sense that the people around me are tired of my complaining but I feel I am doing my best to appear like I am not scared. To them I just have a urinary infection I guess. To me I am constantly uncomfortable and worried sick, too. Painful memories. Lots of unknowns and uncertainty.
I have health anxiety (but I have also authentically been unwell and I am currently unwell). Obviously it is going bezerk in this situation. I am trying not to Google.
I don't want to trigger anyone but the first time around it took them a few years to figure out what was wrong with me. They wouldn't listen to me. Now I have so little faith in what they say.
Just venting I guess. The unknown is really hard to sit with.
The main thing I'm terrified of is that the TB tests wont show anything, so they'll try gentamicin and it wont work and then I will die or live with this forever. Thats my specific health anxiety right now.