Hello. New here

[SissySpaceX]

Hello all, I am thirty something and have been dealing with anxiety/ depression since childhood. I also attempt to manage type1 diabetes, food allergies, and fibromyagia.

After some recent bad life events I began isolating myself. My behavior changed; family and friends reacted differently to me. Negative loop. I don't seem to communicate well in person anymore. So now major social anxiety is in the mix. It feels like I've been spinning plates my whole life and I just finally gave up. Now I am slowly making changes, I hope for the better.
Looking for continued knowledge and friends. Thanks for reading.

 

[Cuchculan]

Welcome to the forum. Hope you find some peace of mind here. We all suffer from one thing or another. So we understand exactly what you are going through. When it first kicks in it is worse as you are still trying to figure things out in your own mind. Though it can be hard to make sense of a lot of things. By the time we do so much of life has passed us by. Might lose friends along the way. People stop calling on us. Really we don't want to tell them much at all. So we can just accept what is happening. Nearly end up alone with our problems. Here you can open up about anything in your own time. Chances are others have been there over the years.

 

[SissySpaceX]

Thank you. That actually is the most comforting words I've heard in a long time.

 

[triceps]

Hi and welcome SissySpaceX. Well, you've been dealt quite the hand. Can I ask if the friends and family who are treating you differently are aware of your anxiety disorder? You sure are juggling many plates. Makes me feel thankful that I'm mainly just dealing with GAD, Social Anxiety and panic disorders. Like @Cuchculan describes, this really is a great place filled with folks with such a wide array of anxiety/depression conditions along with their knowledge and compassion. Again, welcome.

 

[SissySpaceX]

Thank you for the warm welcome triceps.
A little backstory; In my family my parent was the "black sheep" and struggles with mental illness to this day. My grandparents raised me bcuz of neglect and I've been emotionally distraught since their passing. I took care of my Nana and her dimentia during my late 20s.
I have a few close childhood friends. They are aware of most of all this, but they have lives with busy jobs and kids. My extended family and in-laws either dislike me or just don't want to get involved. They probably compare me to my abusive parent, which is my worst fear in life, but there you have it.

 

[libbyroze]

Welcome SissySpaceX, I'm new too. I just wanted to say that I really resonated with all that you said. You are not alone. I had a negative loop last year and went through a season of solitude cause my social anxiety was so bad. I'm believing for continued healing and growth - that all the tangles, pain, and process are ultimately pushing me to something greater. I'll believe that for you too! There is hope for all of us. Glad you're here, welcome!

 

[SissySpaceX]

Thank you libbyroze I'm happy we both found this community.