Hello, my name is...

[doc66]

I'm a first timer, and am a bit anxious (duh) about trying something like this, but here goes nothing.

I'm a mid 30s male, and have in a way struggled with life for as long as I can remember. Spent a decade on meds which made me more zombie like than less anxious/depressed; have spent time with multiple therapists with middling results, have even spent some time in a ward of sorts... it was a dark time.

I know a few things, like never wanting to go back to that place, never wanting to be on meds again, how to appear normal despite feeling like my skin is on fire from touch/attention...

I don't know a few things, like why I am on edge about every single encounter I'm about to face, or why my intrusive thoughts beat me over the head when I try to sleep, where to put my violent thoughts (violence toward myself for being like this, absolutely no one else), or why I always feel inferior to every single living thing in the room.

Lastly, I know this isn't a cure-all, but if it brings any amount of comfort, I am definitely looking forward to partaking.

If you've gotten this far, I will thank you very much for your time, but I'm sure everyone has already checked out by now. Which isn't a big deal at all, I'd prefer it to be honest, who wants to read this drivel anyway!?

Thanks.

 

[Kelculator]

Hey hi there! I have actually read the entire thing, and so........ Welcome to the forum. Sorry about how youe treatment went, and hopefully this forum can help you one way or another. Glad to know you look forward to partaking, since you are one of us now (that doesn't sound creepy).
Again, welcome to the forum!

 

[doc66]

Thank you for taking the time to respond, and no it doesn't sound creepy at all, glad to be a part.

 

[janemariesayed]

I'm a first timer, and am a bit anxious (duh) about trying something like this, but here goes nothing.

I'm a mid 30s male, and have in a way struggled with life for as long as I can remember. Spent a decade on meds which made me more zombie like than less anxious/depressed; have spent time with multiple therapists with middling results, have even spent some time in a ward of sorts... it was a dark time.

I know a few things, like never wanting to go back to that place, never wanting to be on meds again, how to appear normal despite feeling like my skin is on fire from touch/attention...

I don't know a few things, like why I am on edge about every single encounter I'm about to face, or why my intrusive thoughts beat me over the head when I try to sleep, where to put my violent thoughts (violence toward myself for being like this, absolutely no one else), or why I always feel inferior to every single living thing in the room.

Lastly, I know this isn't a cure-all, but if it brings any amount of comfort, I am definitely looking forward to partaking.

If you've gotten this far, I will thank you very much for your time, but I'm sure everyone has already checked out by now. Which isn't a big deal at all, I'd prefer it to be honest, who wants to read this drivel anyway!?

Thanks.

Me Doc! I want to read this drivel. I do because I suffer as well and when I read about others it gives me strength. It makes me realise that I am not alone in this world with my suffering. There are others who I can relate to as well as they can relate to me. You've found the right place to be Doc. You can come on here and get support without being judged at all. Some of us come up with some good tips too so you really have done well to find us. So, I'd like to give you a very warm welcome and I look forward to making a new friend.

 

[Fallenagel0296]

Hi im currentlly taking circadin,vitamin d,mood stabilizers and there has been discussion to get me on paroexetian even considering the amount of weigh that other meds have given me. I did Cognitive behavioural thetatherapy for 3 months and that was okay. That was back when i was 13 years old.