Hello! Anxiety through the roof.

[kdizzle90]

Hey all, my name is Kelly. I had no idea forums like these existed, and let me tell you - I'm so happy I found this!
I've had anxiety all my life. It's always stopped me from doing things, and also caused me to go through life changes much slower than my friends and peers. (Which always sucked... for example; getting a job, moving out, etc.). I'm 27 years old and currently live with my boyfriend of 8 years in our own home. When I started college I began having panic attacks, where I'd be sitting in class and all of a sudden need to urgently leave, the feeling of being nervous too. That's something that I've always been plagued with is feeling nervous for NO reason at all, even when I'm in a calm situation or just watching TV. NERVOUS. It began giving me heart palpitations back in 2014, and they put me on anxiety medication, which stopped the panic attacks and random nervousness. BUT....I have to this day, the worst time with "worst case scenarios" popping into my head. It drives me nuts. If my boyfriend doesn't text me back, or doesn't call I automatically assume he's hurt or in trouble and I freak out (which, honestly, makes me seem psycho. D: ). So not only does it drive friends, family, and boyfriend nuts, but it makes me feel physically ill. My stomach begins to hurt, I cry, get shaky, call whoever I'm trying to get a hold of a million times. This literally just happened 20 minutes ago, and I can't explain how horrible it makes me feel to feel so helpless and scared over something I've blown up in my head. None of my friends get it and neither does my boyfriend or family. I also have no idea how to stop these thoughts from happening, or how to even manage something like that.

So, I'm happy I've found a forum where I can chat with people who have anxiety like myself. <3

 

[triceps]

Hey all, my name is Kelly. I had no idea forums like these existed, and let me tell you - I'm so happy I found this!
I've had anxiety all my life. It's always stopped me from doing things, and also caused me to go through life changes much slower than my friends and peers. (Which always sucked... for example; getting a job, moving out, etc.). I'm 27 years old and currently live with my boyfriend of 8 years in our own home. When I started college I began having panic attacks, where I'd be sitting in class and all of a sudden need to urgently leave, the feeling of being nervous too. That's something that I've always been plagued with is feeling nervous for NO reason at all, even when I'm in a calm situation or just watching TV. NERVOUS. It began giving me heart palpitations back in 2014, and they put me on anxiety medication, which stopped the panic attacks and random nervousness. BUT....I have to this day, the worst time with "worst case scenarios" popping into my head. It drives me nuts. If my boyfriend doesn't text me back, or doesn't call I automatically assume he's hurt or in trouble and I freak out (which, honestly, makes me seem psycho. D: ). So not only does it drive friends, family, and boyfriend nuts, but it makes me feel physically ill. My stomach begins to hurt, I cry, get shaky, call whoever I'm trying to get a hold of a million times. This literally just happened 20 minutes ago, and I can't explain how horrible it makes me feel to feel so helpless and scared over something I've blown up in my head. None of my friends get it and neither does my boyfriend or family. I also have no idea how to stop these thoughts from happening, or how to even manage something like that.

So, I'm happy I've found a forum where I can chat with people who have anxiety like myself. <3

Hi Kdizzle. I'm pretty sure I can match you with the worst case scenario stuff. Luckily my wife and a couple close friends are willing to adjust to me although nobody can really understand unless they have anxiety disorder. If my wife forgets to call if she's coming home late, I'll mentally have her dead and cremated, absolutely beside myself. I just plain worry about so many things that I'm completely aware are unrealistic but can't seem to help it. I've actually gotten so used to the panic attacks over the years and I know I'll make it thru them. I'm very fortunate that those aware of my anxiety do their best to keep me posted on any changes to their plans and are tolerant of my cancelling on them so much. So welcome.

 

[kdizzle90]

Hi Kdizzle. I'm pretty sure I can match you with the worst case scenario stuff. Luckily my wife and a couple close friends are willing to adjust to me although nobody can really understand unless they have anxiety disorder. If my wife forgets to call if she's coming home late, I'll mentally have her dead and cremated, absolutely beside myself. I just plain worry about so many things that I'm completely aware are unrealistic but can't seem to help it. I've actually gotten so used to the panic attacks over the years and I know I'll make it thru them. I'm very fortunate that those aware of my anxiety do their best to keep me posted on any changes to their plans and are tolerant of my cancelling on them so much. So welcome.

Ah, someone who is similar! The struggle is definitely real with worst case scenarios. My boyfriend has adjusted, and so have my friends and family, but they don't understand it. They are usually confused as to why I'm freaking out so much. I told my boyfriend tonight that if he's off late from work I need a phone call or at least a text - otherwise I literally imagine something bad has happened to him. It's a horrible feeling. I think that's the part that sucks is knowing it's all unrealistic, yet worrying about it anyway. Well, feel free to chat with me whenever you need to! It's nice to know we aren't alone in this!

 

[triceps]

Ah, someone who is similar! The struggle is definitely real with worst case scenarios. My boyfriend has adj usted, and so have my friends and family, but they don't understand it. They are usually confused as to why I'm freaking out so much. I told my boyfriend tonight that if he's off late from work I need a phone call or at least a text - otherwise I literally imagine something bad has happened to him. It's a horrible feeling. I think that's the part that sucks is knowing it's all unrealistic, yet worrying about it anyway. Well, feel free to chat with me whenever you need to! It's nice to know we aren't alone in this!

My wife is currently driving up from Minneapolis to our farm three hours north. She has called me twice and texted me once and is now a half hour from home. It's inconvenient for her but she does it because she loves me and knows how worked up I'd get without her considerate contacts. I'm really glad you had that discussion with your boyfriend.

 

[Steven]

Hey all, my name is Kelly. I had no idea forums like these existed, and let me tell you - I'm so happy I found this!
I've had anxiety all my life. It's always stopped me from doing things, and also caused me to go through life changes much slower than my friends and peers. (Which always sucked... for example; getting a job, moving out, etc.). I'm 27 years old and currently live with my boyfriend of 8 years in our own home. When I started college I began having panic attacks, where I'd be sitting in class and all of a sudden need to urgently leave, the feeling of being nervous too. That's something that I've always been plagued with is feeling nervous for NO reason at all, even when I'm in a calm situation or just watching TV. NERVOUS. It began giving me heart palpitations back in 2014, and they put me on anxiety medication, which stopped the panic attacks and random nervousness. BUT....I have to this day, the worst time with "worst case scenarios" popping into my head. It drives me nuts. If my boyfriend doesn't text me back, or doesn't call I automatically assume he's hurt or in trouble and I freak out (which, honestly, makes me seem psycho. D: ). So not only does it drive friends, family, and boyfriend nuts, but it makes me feel physically ill. My stomach begins to hurt, I cry, get shaky, call whoever I'm trying to get a hold of a million times. This literally just happened 20 minutes ago, and I can't explain how horrible it makes me feel to feel so helpless and scared over something I've blown up in my head. None of my friends get it and neither does my boyfriend or family. I also have no idea how to stop these thoughts from happening, or how to even manage something like that.

So, I'm happy I've found a forum where I can chat with people who have anxiety like myself. <3

Just now saw this but wow does it sound like me. I would do the same thing the last girlfriend I had if she hadn’t texted back in a long time I’d immediately assume something awful had happened. I’ve done it before with my best friend too where he had sent me a strange drunken snap chat in the middle of the night. I saw it in the morning, texted him to make sure he was alright. Didn’t respond all day so I assumed something bad had happened. Of course they ended up being fine and had just misplaced his phone or something and couldn’t reply. I don’t know why some of our brains work this way always assuming the worst.

 

[skinnypuppuluver]

I hate that feeling I came home from a camping trip and my parents seemed to know something they weren't telling me so I could only imagine what it was and that's the literal worst feeling ever

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[prismpower]

Our imagination can dream up things much worse than reality, even if the reality is sad and bad.

I've always felt like an artist, and have been way too imaginative/daydreamy for my own good. The bright side of this is I can dream up of hopeful solutions that others miss because they are too focused on the nitty gritty of life, the downside is I can wreck myself silly thinking of some horrible thing that hasn't happened.

Maybe you could allow yourself a little prayer/faith/hopeful thinking to counter-balance the darker side of fears. There is a creepy doubt in every prayer, but hope too springs eternal even in the most dire of situations. I think they did a study once, the people who survived the holocaust the were most often simply the ones that believed they could. They had hope and faith.

Lots of people here can relate and empathize with you. I hope you feel better. <3

 

[prismpower]

Trust me having cancer is much better than worrying you might have cancer.

My dad told jokes and kept his humor up, until the day he died. It was so inspiring to me, even though yeah he had this horrible illness that was so sad.

Yet anxiety sucks so bad. Worrying about all these horrible things that probably won't ever come true. And even if they do, you just wasted so much time and life energy focusing on them. Anxiety is the 'worst villain' ever imo. It would be more relieving then, if the horrible thing just comes. But we don't really want that either, we just want to live a good life as we can.

 

[scharley1973]

Trust me having cancer is much better than worrying you might have cancer.

My dad told jokes and kept his humor up, until the day he died. It was so inspiring to me, even though yeah he had this horrible illness that was so sad.

Yet anxiety sucks so bad. Worrying about all these horrible things that probably won't ever come true. And even if they do, you just wasted so much time and life energy focusing on them. Anxiety is the 'worst villain' ever imo. It would be more relieving then, if the horrible thing just comes. But we don't really want that either, we just want to live a good life as we can.

i think i wasted several years off my life by worrying so much about my anxiety or another panic attack i am one that cant sleep w/my anxiety...im up till the morning hours...i feel like im the only one i hardly c anyone on here in the morning hours....i feel alone

 

[skinnypuppuluver]

i think i wasted several years off my life by worrying so much about my anxiety or another panic attack i am one that cant sleep w/my anxiety...im up till the morning hours...i feel like im the only one i hardly c anyone on here in the morning hours....i feel alone

You're not the only one who spends all night over thinking every little aspect of there day and lives and then regrets it in the morning

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[Hurt&Hopeful]

Welcome @kdizzle90 ! So glad you found us. No, you are DEFINITELY not the only one. Anxiety comes in lots of fun shapes and sizes, and overthinking is common.