Heavily worried of infection

[Grace360]

I'm pretty annoying at this point. And yet here I am. I'm truly worried.
So I've been hearing of infection lately.
A 13 year old suddenly died at a competition, and very quick. A couple went to Figi and died pretty quickly from an illness. And a string of guests have been dying in a Dominican republic hotel after getting heavily sick.
Now me. Usually I ask my parents or guardians to try my food before I eat it.
To be cautious and all.
Now as of now, they aren't. I fixed myself a mug cake yesterday. I was nervous because I had never made one before, and I'm very nervous of undercooked food. It seemed cooked. And soon, after no one gave in, I ate it. Now I regret it
I initially woke up at around 4, 5 AM. I had an intense wave of nausea. And some burning going up my throat a bit. I really felt like I was gonna hurl.
But I didn't. Now my limbs feel off.
Kind of like jelly. They aren't numb per say. I know numbness is a real problem. They just feel weak, and like jelly.
I'm more so looking for peace of mind. I'm trying to have a productive day today, and I don't need this all up in my mind.

 

[triceps]

Hi Grace. You've got so many triggers that it's difficult to make suggestions for you. It's a very large world out there and there's always weird stuff going on, be it strange deaths or outbreaks of some serious diseases. The only way for your thinking to settle down is to look at yourself as just one person of billions and separate yourself from the news headlines. All of your symptoms after eating the mug cake are standard anxiety symptoms. YOU are going to have to somehow change how you approach your many triggers or you will always be suffering and frustrate those around you. I don't know where you are at as far as therapy or medication (or both) but it's obvious that you need some extra help with your anxiety. You deserve not to have to suffer like this on a daily basis so please look into some professional options, medical or counseling or faith as you can not go on facing your anxiety alone.

 

[Grace360]

Hi Grace. You've got so many triggers that it's difficult to make suggestions for you. It's a very large world out there and there's always weird stuff going on, be it strange deaths or outbreaks of some serious diseases. The only way for your thinking to settle down is to look at yourself as just one person of billions and separate yourself from the news headlines. All of your symptoms after eating the mug cake are standard anxiety symptoms. YOU are going to have to somehow change how you approach your many triggers or you will always be suffering and frustrate those around you. I don't know where you are at as far as therapy or medication (or both) but it's obvious that you need some extra help with your anxiety. You deserve not to have to suffer like this on a daily basis so please look into some professional options, medical or counseling or faith as you can not go on facing your anxiety alone.

I see.. thank you. I increased my dosage of Zoloft to 100. I'm going to therapy every week now. Trying to focus on her techniques she gives me. It just feels so difficult. All of these symptoms.

 

[triceps]

I'm sorry Grace, I was unaware of the help you've been getting outside of your home. My best to you in focusing on the techniques that are being suggested. Here's hoping that some of your symptoms will let up.

 

[Grace360]

I'm sorry Grace, I was unaware of the help you've been getting outside of your home. My best to you in focusing on the techniques that are being suggested. Here's hoping that some of your symptoms will let up.

Me too. Just trying to differentiate between a sign of infection and my actual anxiety. Mostly sitting here having anxiety about my hands getting numb. As well as other symptoms I found out about. And my body feels tired too. Even though I slept. But that's usually due to my depression.

 

[Cuchculan]

You have to ask yourself how much of all of this you go through can be really various kinds of illnesses? I did suggest in one of your other threads that you make a list of everything you think you have. Then see what comes of it. If nothing comes of it put a tick next to it. The tick meaning it was just you anxiety. So after a few weeks you will have yourself a good list. Should be able to see how many were real and how many were just your anxiety. Then you use to try and help yourself worry less. Once you see that probably all that is on that list was just your anxiety. I know it is hard when you are going through it. You have to live with the various feelings. But it is all about breaking the chain. Been able to tell yourself it is just your anxiety.