hey everyone. I just needed to chat a bit with people who understand what it’s like to have such anxiety and I stumbled across this forum. I have GAD and a few weeks ago after standing for a fair bit and several lengthy car rides I had some swelling in my left leg that didn’t seem to want to go away so mistakenly I turned to Dr. google in hopes of finding out how to relieve it. And of course every link that popped up was in regards to a blood clot in the leg. Well I also had a fair bit of back pain from the standing so I dug out my really good supportive shoes and was wearing them around the house and the swelling went away in my leg. So I let it go thinking it must have had something to do with the back pain. But it lingered in the back of my head (you know how that goes! ) and I worried about it off and on randomly googling various things and some how always coming back to a blood clot. Last week while out of town visiting relatives I ended up with a very sore throat and after several days with out improvement I went into the doctor thinking it was strep and intending to mention my blood clot concern but after the dr came in and laughed at me for coming in for my throat (which turned out to be laryngitis and a mild sinus infection.) I was embarrassed and afraid to look even more like I was making something out of nothing and couldn’t bring myself to mention the leg issues. Well fast forward a few days and several “symptoms” later I had become so obsessed I couldn’t put my phone down I was constantly googling this or that which isn’t typical for me health wise I may have a moment here or there where I am obsessive about it but usually I can function this had become all convincing for me. So I called and spoke with a nurse as I am still out of town and she said she couldn’t say it wasn’t but it didn’t sound like one to her. But I was welcome to come in to be sure however she didn’t know if imaging was still there. I had hoped that just calling and hearing it didn’t sound like one would ease my mind but no such luck. I ended up working myself up rather extensively to the point I finally called a second time to see around 5hours later and was upfront that I was having some extreme anxiety over the situation and to see if certain symptoms behaved in certain wayd and to try and sort out what I should do. I was informed (after a very confusing conversation about I type of clot I wasn’t even concerned about) that I could come in but they don’t have an ultrasound tech on so if the dr felt it was a concern he would send me an hour away for an ultra sound and I would return for treatment after. Or I could wait till tomorrow when they have a tech on. Since the symptoms I have a minimal at best and I am only two blocks from the hospital and I have already waited this long after a panicked debate with myself and the family member I am staying with I decided to wait till tomorrow. And although I am still very anxious I have calmed down some but I thought maybe sharing my story here would keep me from googling my self into another attack.
Sorry for such a long ramble!
Sorry for such a long ramble!
