Going for a physical

[MamaLove]

Tomorrow. I'm absolutely scared out of my mind. My plan is that I want to make sure everything is ok, and then talk to the doctor about therapy and medication to get my anxiety under control. But of course my brain keeps telling me that they're going to find something. I've been obsessing about my liver, and the only thing that's keeping my panic at a manageable level is that I actually had my AFP level checked a couple months ago (due to pregnancy) and it was totally normal. Liver tumors can make the number go very high.

I could just use some encouragement to get through this appointment! I feel like I'm going to throw up

 

[adamden]

You've always been a big help with me, so I'll be a big help with you here.
I'm sure that if the AFP level was checked and came back normal, there's absolutely no reason to assume that it has changed since a couple of months ago. I can assure you that your physical will go just as planned.
For some extra calming, I'll recommend to you this, something called visual imagery. If you find some time today, get into a comfortable chair or your bed, and close your eyes. Put on some soothing sounds if you would like. Imagine yourself in a place where you are most happy. Let's say that's the beach. Think of the things that make the beach so great. Is it the water and the way it ripples? Is it the sand and the feeling of it through your toes? Just imagine those things and create the greatest picture you can of that place where you are most happy. It makes anxiety seem non-existent in that moment.
Good luck tomorrow. We're rooting for you.

 

[MamaLove]

Thanks. I've been working on controlling my breathing. I also wrote out everything I've been worrying about so I can make sure I discuss it with the doctor and I won't feel like I missed something later. I keep telling myself that in the unlikely event she finds something, it's better to know so I can get it taken care of. And if not, I can put my whole focus into dealing with my anxiety.

Good luck with your own upcoming appointment!