MasterRoshi
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Sorry for the jumbled mess. Trying to get my thoughts out.
I’ve been deep in depression and anxiety for many years and about 7 months ago I started seeking help for it. Since then I’ve gotten
There is a women I work with (I started a new job 1 month ago) and very quickly I realized that she has an awesome personality and compared to the other 20 people I work around, she’s really really cool! To be honest compared to most people I’ve met over the years I think I really like her.
I’m married (and in a rocky part but working on fixing it) and she has a boyfriend for 2 years.
What I’ve noticed is my attraction to her has steadily grown for the last month and now I think I’ve become slightly weird. It might all be in my head cuz I have really low self esteem and talk **** about myself in my head very often.
And I realized yesterday that I spend way too much time thinking about her, or wanting to spend time with her, or hoping she starts a conversation with me or if there’s multiple people in the room, that she chooses to talk to me.
And it’s affecting my life kinda, cuz I feel like I’m acting differently at work to try and be more attractive to her or be more impressive. And I wish that she wasn’t someone who I liked cuz, then I could be more normal and not be so obsessed...
I wish I could have the attitude of “she’s nice, I’m attracted to her, but who cares! She has a bf and I’m married!” But instead it’s bugging me and I think too much about it. An example is we all share each other’s calendars Incase we need each other for something. And I found myself looking at her calendar to see if she is gonna be around when I am. Now that I type it m, it sounds kinda creepy, and it might be, but I mean no harm by it. It’s just cuz I enjoy talking with her and want to see when I could talk with her next.
Is this a topic for a completely different forum? Or is this somehow related to my depression /anxiety?
The reason I ask is cuz 7 months ago I was unable to socialize with anyone or get a job, and through lots of work on myself, I’ve been able to make so really great progress. So now that I’m in a job, and socializing, I think it’s all really new to me and I’m learning how to be around people without pushing them away (if they’re not my favorite) or holding on too tight (if I like them).
Anyone else deal with this? Any suggestions how to calm the frick down and just be normal???
I’ve been deep in depression and anxiety for many years and about 7 months ago I started seeking help for it. Since then I’ve gotten
There is a women I work with (I started a new job 1 month ago) and very quickly I realized that she has an awesome personality and compared to the other 20 people I work around, she’s really really cool! To be honest compared to most people I’ve met over the years I think I really like her.
I’m married (and in a rocky part but working on fixing it) and she has a boyfriend for 2 years.
What I’ve noticed is my attraction to her has steadily grown for the last month and now I think I’ve become slightly weird. It might all be in my head cuz I have really low self esteem and talk **** about myself in my head very often.
And I realized yesterday that I spend way too much time thinking about her, or wanting to spend time with her, or hoping she starts a conversation with me or if there’s multiple people in the room, that she chooses to talk to me.
And it’s affecting my life kinda, cuz I feel like I’m acting differently at work to try and be more attractive to her or be more impressive. And I wish that she wasn’t someone who I liked cuz, then I could be more normal and not be so obsessed...
I wish I could have the attitude of “she’s nice, I’m attracted to her, but who cares! She has a bf and I’m married!” But instead it’s bugging me and I think too much about it. An example is we all share each other’s calendars Incase we need each other for something. And I found myself looking at her calendar to see if she is gonna be around when I am. Now that I type it m, it sounds kinda creepy, and it might be, but I mean no harm by it. It’s just cuz I enjoy talking with her and want to see when I could talk with her next.
Is this a topic for a completely different forum? Or is this somehow related to my depression /anxiety?
The reason I ask is cuz 7 months ago I was unable to socialize with anyone or get a job, and through lots of work on myself, I’ve been able to make so really great progress. So now that I’m in a job, and socializing, I think it’s all really new to me and I’m learning how to be around people without pushing them away (if they’re not my favorite) or holding on too tight (if I like them).
Anyone else deal with this? Any suggestions how to calm the frick down and just be normal???