Myfastheart
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Hello,
Several months back my father died at the age of 56. Four years prior to his young death he was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. About a year and a half ago I left military service and returned home to be closer to my father and family. After he told my sister and me that the doctors had said there was nothing that could be done and that he should contact hospice care I tried to prepare myself. I would say to myself "be ready, your father will be dead soon. The sooner you accept it the easier it can be processed." The morning he died I was lost in a world of sorrow and fear. I could not eat. My head throbbed in pain the entire day. My mouth was dry and I was completely dizzy. The week between his death and the service is a complete blur.
I have come to this site because his death has planted something deep inside me. A fear that I will suffer his same fate. Over the past few months I have thought I was having heart attacks, some forms of cancer, and cronic stress. My health anxiety has driven me to the ER and several doctor's office. At the ER they did all the normal tests (EKG, blood work, X-RAY) and they said I was fine. A few days ago I went to an urgent care with mild chest pains. Again, they did an EKG; however, this on came back as a "borderline EKG" saying there is a probable abnormality. Oh boy! An abnormality! That's what I need to hear. I'm not too worried about it, though. Often when I get my blood pressure check it reads high because doctor offices make me nervous. I've heard EKG's can give false readings too, due to anxiety.
Anyway, my name is Tripp. I'm quite thrilled to meet you.
Several months back my father died at the age of 56. Four years prior to his young death he was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. About a year and a half ago I left military service and returned home to be closer to my father and family. After he told my sister and me that the doctors had said there was nothing that could be done and that he should contact hospice care I tried to prepare myself. I would say to myself "be ready, your father will be dead soon. The sooner you accept it the easier it can be processed." The morning he died I was lost in a world of sorrow and fear. I could not eat. My head throbbed in pain the entire day. My mouth was dry and I was completely dizzy. The week between his death and the service is a complete blur.
I have come to this site because his death has planted something deep inside me. A fear that I will suffer his same fate. Over the past few months I have thought I was having heart attacks, some forms of cancer, and cronic stress. My health anxiety has driven me to the ER and several doctor's office. At the ER they did all the normal tests (EKG, blood work, X-RAY) and they said I was fine. A few days ago I went to an urgent care with mild chest pains. Again, they did an EKG; however, this on came back as a "borderline EKG" saying there is a probable abnormality. Oh boy! An abnormality! That's what I need to hear. I'm not too worried about it, though. Often when I get my blood pressure check it reads high because doctor offices make me nervous. I've heard EKG's can give false readings too, due to anxiety.
Anyway, my name is Tripp. I'm quite thrilled to meet you.
