HollowHorror
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Hi everyone, I'm a long time reader of forums like this but a first time poster. I'm not really sure how much or what to say here, so I guess I'll just give you a little background on my issues with anxiety and depression. I had my first anxiety/panic attack when I was around 5 years old. This would have been sometime around 1988 or '89. One attack became many more in a very short time span.
Some of you may remember that mental health issues weren't discussed as openly back then as they are now. Because of this, my family had no idea what was going on, and somehow neither did my pediatrician or her nurses. After several years of trying my best to explain the physical issues associated with these attacks, I kind of gave up. I thought I was the only person who had these issues for many years after that. This led to depression that started sometime between the age of 8 to 10 years old.
I turned to the typical risky behaviors in my teen years (drugs and alcohol among others). I think this was my way of trying to feel "normal". Thankfully I made it through those years without any permanent reminders other than some regrets and bad memories. I was finally diagnosed at the age of 25; social anxiety, general anxiety, panic disorder, agoraphobia and major depressive disorder. I live a fairly isolated life. I cut ties with my "friends" (it's a long story) many years ago, and because of my anxiety, haven't really been able to make new friends since.
Anyway, these days I try to focus on the things I love; my family, horror movies, heavy metal, writing music, beer and whiskey (non medicinally of course). I hope you all have a great day or night, and if you have any questions or comments don't be afraid to let me know.
Some of you may remember that mental health issues weren't discussed as openly back then as they are now. Because of this, my family had no idea what was going on, and somehow neither did my pediatrician or her nurses. After several years of trying my best to explain the physical issues associated with these attacks, I kind of gave up. I thought I was the only person who had these issues for many years after that. This led to depression that started sometime between the age of 8 to 10 years old.
I turned to the typical risky behaviors in my teen years (drugs and alcohol among others). I think this was my way of trying to feel "normal". Thankfully I made it through those years without any permanent reminders other than some regrets and bad memories. I was finally diagnosed at the age of 25; social anxiety, general anxiety, panic disorder, agoraphobia and major depressive disorder. I live a fairly isolated life. I cut ties with my "friends" (it's a long story) many years ago, and because of my anxiety, haven't really been able to make new friends since.
Anyway, these days I try to focus on the things I love; my family, horror movies, heavy metal, writing music, beer and whiskey (non medicinally of course). I hope you all have a great day or night, and if you have any questions or comments don't be afraid to let me know.
