Feeling better but still on edge

[Grace360]

Yesterday night I took some year old hydroxyzine. It was a last resort to my terrible panic attack yesterday, because I needed it. Big mistake though. I feel like I got hit with a bus this morning. I still have those brain aneurysm fears. Especially since I've been having an occasional sharp pain in the top of my head sometimes, or sometimes top ans slightly down or left or right. Skipped from poison to that. And then along with panic attacks raising my blood pressure and that being a risk factor to that fear, its vicious. Not to mention getting older is exasperating my fears. I mean, I'm 17 now. Soon to be an adult. And with how many triggering things I've seen, people d*ing young, it really doesn't help. My therapist once said I may have OCD but I never quite believed it until last night. I was so so scared. Still am. But that hydroxyzine is so strong.
I don't know. I know I need therapy but I don't think that fear is going to go away.

 

[bin_tenn]

The deep seated fear may never go away, you're right. But you can eventually overcome it, and you can learn to control it - instead of the fear controlling you. You're 17, you should not be worrying about all of these things. I know we don't make a conscious decision to let fear run our lives, I'm just saying you should do all you can to get a hold of anxiety/fear and get it under control.

I'm 34 this year - twice your age. I spent much of my 20s worried about one thing or another, more specifically heart related anxiety. Yes, it's still there, but I've learned to control it and not feel overwhelmed with irrational thoughts/worries. I'd hate for you or anyone else to make the same mistake of wasting the younger years worried about health like this.

There is nothing wrong with experiencing occasional aches and pains. They're a perfectly normal part of the human experience. Brain aneurysm, IMO, is near the bottom of a very long list of things that may be causing your head pain. I get those from time to time as well, and I assume they're just icepick headaches. It happens!

Instead of focusing your energy on what you fear, and how it makes you feel, focus your energy on the positives. Focus on getting better. Focus on defeating the crippling anxiety.

 

[bigjetplane6]

Yes, as Bin said. You’re young, try your best to not waste your years with HA. It’s a vicious thing.