Feel like I am really loosing my mind

[Giarose25]

I don’t know what to do anymore. Sometimes I’m ok and moved on other times I fall apart. I am not how I was in the beginning when all of these fears started. I got my results from my neurologist who assured me that I did not have MS, ok then my anxiety which was horrible (was not eating, constant crying, symptoms like burning on skin, joint pain,weakness) a lot of which came after reading on both ms and lupus. (I have been off of google) I calmed down and the weakness went away the joint pain went away( I always have mild mild joint paint in my fingers but I typically never pay it an mind). I had my appointment with my rheumatologist earlier this week and the night before of course joint pain got intense and fear took over. I’ve calmed down waiting on blood tests. I yelled at myself privately and said I’m not doing this, ignore it and keep busy, I did and it went away. Now yesterday I woke up with neck pain and upper back pain that now has a burning sensation (the neurologist said this is most likely from tension. But of coarse I feel al of this and start worrying and it intensifies and I start to cry remembering everything I read and having my doubts about them missing something. I have this bitter taste in my mouth(I do have acid reflux) but I’m so overwhelmed it’s like I can’t get a break with symptoms and I feel crazy and sad. I feel like I am loosing myself. I feel crazy and irrational but scared and I’m so tired of this.

 

[FlipperK]

Symptoms from anxiety hang around for awhile even after the climax.

You have all of this built up stress, nervousness, and chemicals that when you finally release it has an effect. Your muscles finally relax for once, your chemicals/hormones/adrenaline in the blood start to level out, but that takes work for your body to do.

Your body is repairing itself from the marathon stress test you put on it. It will take up to week to feel completely normal again. Aches and all.

Your okay! Let your body heal. Eat well, drink plenty of water, and relax. Watch movies, read a book.

 

[Kari85]

Sounds like it’s time to get some professional help. Are you doing anything to treat your anxiety?

 

[FlipperK]

Sounds like it’s time to get some professional help. Are you doing anything to treat your anxiety?

I’m with Kari, now you got your doctor confirmations that your okay, the next step is to get help.

Are you seeing a therapist? Taking medication?

There is nothing wrong with getting help. You need to build a foundation of help to keep your anxiety at a manageable level.

We are prone to going into panics and long term anxiety episodes. Medicine helps keep those bumps from turning into mountains. Therapy helps you understand how to cope and handle situations. See things differently and how to move on when these things happen.

You got passed the first step, now keep going to build that foundation.

 

[Giarose25]

I’m with Kari, now you got your doctor confirmations that your okay, the next step is to get help.

Are you seeing a therapist? Taking medication?

There is nothing wrong with getting help. You need to build a foundation of help to keep your anxiety at a manageable level.

We are prone to going into panics and long term anxiety episodes. Medicine helps keep those bumps from turning into mountains. Therapy helps you understand how to cope and handle situations. See things differently and how to move on when these things happen.

You got passed the first step, now keep going to build that foundation.

Yes I’m working on an off with a psychiatrist that o saw for the first time about two weeks ago, in the process of seeing someone regularly close by me. I just started medication for OCD, I do take clonazepam some times for sleep. I try not to take it unless I feel like I really am having a hard time relaxing for bed. I just get so freaked out when I feel something.
But I am trying hard to tell myself in the mean time that I really put myself through a lot and I think because I’m still waiting on my results it still doesn’t feel like this is officially over yet. It’s like I get a breather then another appointment that makes me a little anxious.

 

[FlipperK]

Yes I’m working on an off with a psychiatrist that o saw for the first time about two weeks ago, in the process of seeing someone regularly close by me. I just started medication for OCD, I do take clonazepam some times for sleep. I try not to take it unless I feel like I really am having a hard time relaxing for bed. I just get so freaked out when I feel something.
But I am trying hard to tell myself in the mean time that I really put myself through a lot and I think because I’m still waiting on my results it still doesn’t feel like this is officially over yet. It’s like I get a breather then another appointment that makes me a little anxious.

Here is a tip, it’s never going to be truly over. Our minds will move on to the next thing, then the next, and the next. You have to accept that it is just who we are. There is nothing wrong with it. Other people have their own demons we don’t have to worry about. This is ours.

This is something we will have to deal with our entire lives.

But the good news is that we know how to treat it and live a great life. I am so glad to hear you are seeing someone and that you have some sort of medication.

I would suggest looking into a more daily medication you take all the time. Even when you feel good and you aren’t worrying about anything. Because when the anxiety bug hits, you will be glad that medication is already in your system. Will it stop it entirely? No, but it won’t turn into a months long ordeal.

My mom has dealt with anxiety and depression her entire adult life. She told me to just take the medicine and get help. When you do it all the tome, it’s routine and you are way happier than trying to handle it all alone.

 

[Giarose25]

Yes I am trying so hard to remind myself of this everyday I feel it coming on! It’s just this was so out of no where In terms of my first panic attack being almost four years ago and it was set off from me quitting smoking marijuana. Now this health scare came off of too much google and spiraled into something that I now feel was a little traumatic. I was in bed for days crying waiting for my mri to come back, in my head I was diagnosed then it’s like there was some relief, and the next specialist that I was scheduled to see to rule out one of my blood tests that came up borderline positive brought back some jitters. And after having back pain my original ms fear came crawling. It’s like all of a sudden I can’t be sick or have pain without thinking complete worse case scenario and I just get so fed up with myself. I’ll read a response on here and I’ll come down and feel silly for even panicking but it is a constant battle back and fourth. Thank you for the response!