Fear of dying of heart attack

[Jessie]

I have been going to the hospital for tachycardia my heart has gone up to 170 and I've called an ambulance about twice I get shortness of breath and dizzyness with heart palpitations and every time at the hospital they diagnose me with anxiety they even done an echocardiogram and said I was fine but I want to have further test long done to see if the doctors didn't miss anything but they refuse and also because my insurance is pending makes me more nervous sense I still don't have access to a primary care doctor im so scared every day im worse and they prescribed me ativan it helps but I don't want to get addicted and I feel like I can get seizures from that the hospital staff and doctors don't take me serious im so scared and it doesn't help that I look everything up on google please someone help im a 23 year old female and I do have a history of childhood leukaemia

 

[Olu]

I know this might not be convincing enough coming from someone you don't know but I beg you, breath a little. I was exactly where you are 2 years ago and maybe worse. I am a software engineer and the first thing that popped to my mind when it all first started, was to research all my symptoms on google. Believe me, it did not help. I must have called 911 like 5 times. Went to the emergency room like 8-9 times. Did every test in the book and they could not find anything. Every emergency room visit cost me like $5k. My doctor actually was so sorry for me one time after the last round of tests and seeing the result, he was worried about calling and telling me that everything looked good. Yes, I was diagnosed at one point with POTS but it turned out that the effect of stress and anxiety over the course of it all, was worse than the POTS symptoms. I couldn't not drive for like a year. Couldn't get out of the house. Couldn't sit or stand up without pain. Every bad symptoms you can think of, I had. My stomach is still messed up from IBS. This is what I did. I got to a point where I accepted it and decided, if this is how my life is going to be for the rest of my life, so be it. I got tired of the constant ringing of fear in my head that keeps telling me, you may fall down and die any second.

So, once again, I beg you, breath.... It will be alright. If the doctors said that your heart is good, believe it and move on. I know it's easier said than done but start reminding yourself of it and keep at it. If you believe in God, pray and I promise you it will get better. I am beginning to drive again now. Just a little here and there but it is something. For almost two years, I could not get behind a steering wheel without having a panic attack. It was terrible but I believe you can make it and you will. I still have the feeling of like having a concrete slab on my chest and the tightness but I am pushing on and it's getting better by the day. It's going to be a long journey but the end of it will be well. Hang in there.

 

[maryam]

Hi, I'm so sorry about the hardships you must have dealt with as you had childhood leukemia, Unfortunately such experiences may have played some part in the anxiety you feel now. I also have Tachycardia my heart went to 200 and higher and I was going to the hospital frequently thinking I am having a heart attack at 19. I toke a low dose of anxiety anxiety meds which helped. What put my mind at ease was going to a cardiologist who ran multiple heart tests to show me the chances of a heart attack for me are slim to none. My heart rate naturally is elevated. Tips to do in the mean time. Continue your medication, over time it will help. Distract your self even if your uncomfortable doing so.Take warm epsom salt/sea salt baths. You are going to get through this trust me