Hello everyone over the past days to a week I have been tormented by my thoughts related to something I read on the internet. I'm a fan of motorsports but unknowingly came across a comment describing a horrific graphic accident that happened years ago that resulted in the death of the driver. I have been a motorsports fan since I was young and always knew it came with risks of severe injury or death but I was able to still watch knowing the safety advances that have made it safer than in the past. But after reading the post about the accident I can't get the description of the incident out of my head and now am fearful of watching motorsports for fear of witnessing a bloody accident. I have OCD so I deal with unwanted violent thoughts sometimes but most of those are just something my brain thinks of for some reason and they pass. So if my mind does this on it's own I fear what it might do if I see something actually happen on TV that is so graphic I'll never forget it. I never watched motorsports for the crashes I knew it was a part of it but that's not what I watch it for it's just to see talented drivers do things in cars not everyone can do that's what I find interesting about it. But I didn't know I would be reading a post describing such a brutal incident. I don't want to give up watching racing because it's something I have a strong interest in but I also get sick to my stomach knowing I'm watching something that has had a tragic past and think I'm a sick person for watching something I know could have a bad ending. That's really what is tormenting me am I a sick person for watching something that can have such an outcome? I know some of you might say just don't watch then but I just don't know I may just have to take the risk and deal with it if I ever see it. Sorry for the long post just needed to explain. Thanks for taking the time to read.
Fear of being a disturbed person
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Motor racing is a very dangerous sport and drivers already know that it could be the death of them. I know what you mean about not being able to watch an actual accident and what it does to the mind. Slightly different but I cannot watch an animal movie because, guarantee that poor animal will have a problem, sickness, injury or something and I can't cope with that. I can't even watch King Kong because I see him suffer and it isn't even real.
If you can't cope with something, then you have two choices. You can either boycott anything like it or throw yourself into it completely. If you throw yourself into it and watch every accident there is over and over, then your mind will either just accept it and not bother with it any more, or it will throw you into crazy can't cope mode. Maybe it is better to stick with just watching it sometimes. You are not a sick person for wanting to watch a sport. What about boxing? Boxers know that they could end up punch drunk or dead yet they still do it with hundreds of people watching. Maybe humankind should be called humannasty!
You don't come across as a bad person. You don't want them to crash and get hurt but you do enjoy the racing. There is nothing wrong with that.