FEAR I HAVE MENINGITIS

[maryam]

I've had health anxiety for quite sometime now. I got really bad when I contracted the Flu Strain B this year and heard many people were dying from it while I was the sickest I had ever been. I'm 20 now and constantly see meningitis b vaccine commercial on TV, which is terrifying by the way. I also toke a Biopsych class that touched on meningitis and my friend told me she was getting the vaccine this year which made me think. I don't live in dorm but my boyfriend currently does, after seeing this commercial 1000 thousand times and once convincing my self after a horrible headache that I had meningitis a couple years back, I decided to look into MENINGITIS some more a week ago..BIG MISTAKE. I've learned more than I ever wanted to know. I don't want to be around my boyfriend when he gets back for college now because I'VE LEARNED 25 PERCENT OF PEOPLE CAN CARRY THE MENINGITIS BACTERIA IN THERE NOSE AND THROAT WITHOUT SYMPTOMS. My boyfriend not being exactly the epitome of germs has shared drinks and bongs with people. and I was expressing this to my best friend today when she freaked out and told me her stoner bf has been vaccinated 5 months ago but has all the symptoms. Stiff neck, clammy, on and off fever, lack if appetite. for 4-3 days. I told her not worry because it is rapid then I learned you can have symptoms that mimic the flu for days before meningitis symptoms.We called him and he confirmed he has been feeling ill and will be going to doctor tomorrow if he is worse. Now I'm scared that if her boyfriend carries it and has no symptoms really because he is vaccinated and she kisses him obviously she can also be a carrier without symptoms for now if ever as well and has given it to me because she was talking to me and some spit was flying that I can see visibly by sunlight in her car. PLZ HELP ME. I'M SO PARANOID. I believe I was vaccinated for the A,C,W,Y strains when I was younger but I don't remember ever getting the booster at 16 and I DIDN'T have the Meningitis B Strain one that you get in college, because I was scared thinking about it the last few days of possibly being a carrier myself and activating the virus when I get the vaccine. PLEASE HELP ME with any advice, now im here waiting and PRAYINg that I Don't get meningitis since I know the incubation period is 1-2 days up to 10 days or 2 weeks.

 

[janemariesayed]

Hello @maryam nice to meet you and a very warm welcome here to our friendly community.

Over here in the UK I've noticed that every quarter hour on a lot of channels on the TV that they put on an advert about cancer. That dreaded fatal disease. It makes me paranoid because I believe in energy. So that means that when I see they put on these adverts that energy comes out and can give us cancer. I know this sounds crazy but I suppose I may be a bit crazy. The way I think it works is that it makes us think of cancer and in thinking about it, bring it to fruition.

So I switch the channel when it comes on. Or I turn my face away and turn the sound on mute.

Firstly, try not to pay any attention to these commercials. Turn your face away and mute the sound while it is on. That way, you won't have it in your mind quite so much.

Secondly, it is very doubtful that you do have it. Go to your doctor and get him to do a test to see if you had the booster. He should be able to check in your medical records if you had it or not. If you didn't then get the booster which will settle your mind a bit.

I know it is really, really hard to do. But, you need to put it out of your mind as soon as it comes in. This means training your thoughts which is possible, it's just really difficult.

Meditation can teach you to control your thoughts. Another simple way is, whenever you notice those thoughts come into your mind, put an image of something like an icecream cone there instead. Keep doing that and eventually those thoughts will become less and less and your fear should subside somewhat.

Please let us know how you get on.

 

[maryam]

Hello @maryam nice to meet you and a very warm welcome here to our friendly community.

Over here in the UK I've noticed that every quarter hour on a lot of channels on the TV that they put on an advert about cancer. That dreaded fatal disease. It makes me paranoid because I believe in energy. So that means that when I see they put on these adverts that energy comes out and can give us cancer. I know this sounds crazy but I suppose I may be a bit crazy. The way I think it works is that it makes us think of cancer and in thinking about it, bring it to fruition.

So I switch the channel when it comes on. Or I turn my face away and turn the sound on mute.

Firstly, try not to pay any attention to these commercials. Turn your face away and mute the sound while it is on. That way, you won't have it in your mind quite so much.

Secondly, it is very doubtful that you do have it. Go to your doctor and get him to do a test to see if you had the booster. He should be able to check in your medical records if you had it or not. If you didn't then get the booster which will settle your mind a bit.

I know it is really, really hard to do. But, you need to put it out of your mind as soon as it comes in. This means training your thoughts which is possible, it's just really difficult.

Meditation can teach you to control your thoughts. Another simple way is, whenever you notice those thoughts come into your mind, put an image of something like an icecream cone there instead. Keep doing that and eventually those thoughts will become less and less and your fear should subside somewhat.

Please let us know how you get on.

Hi janemariesayed, thanks so much for you kind words. You are not crazy by my standards, I also believe in negative energy and just energy in general. I think what your saying makes sense.

I'm don't think I got the booster and forsure did not get the Meningitis B vaccine you get before college. It is hard for me because its only common in my age group apparently and is really affecting me. For example, my boyfriend is visiting this weekend and I'm nervous, Im a fairly affectionate and intimate person but i'm nervous to kiss him since I know now you get it from saliva r secretions. Honestly researching after so many commercials I saw triggering the curiosity was a HORRIBLE idea. I did not see myself as High risk because I do not live In a dorm, but since my boyfriend currently does for summer school, this triggered me hard and had me connect that this could now be a risk for me.and the whole nothing about 25% of people being silent carriers and carrying it at some point in their nose and Throat without getting sick themselves but still able to spread to others and get them sick was super scary for me. I try to talk myself out of it, my boyfriend is only in the dorm for summer, does not party, and barely talks to his roomates, but im still so scared. I think of my dad who lived in a dorm, had roomates for Alot of his life, went to clubs, was in the military and did not contract anything, the MENINGITIS B vaccine was not even around then it. just came out in 2014, yet the fear still gets to me. I want to get the vaccine but I know they have side effects that might be similar to that of meningitis and i'm not sure I could tell the difference of whether I have meningitis or if its just the vaccine at that point if that happens. I read an article with a boy who lost his legs and hands and said that he got a bug bite in college that he believes triggered the meningitis b he already carried in his nose to be activated because his immune was low I guess, makes me scared that by getting the vaccine I will trigger the meningitis I already may carry since 25 percent of people do without knowing and allow it to then thrive. This is so annoying.

I feel insane. Thanks for your positivity and kind words. I need reassurance and positivity at this time. It means so much to me

 

[janemariesayed]

Hi janemariesayed, thanks so much for you kind words. You are not crazy by my standards, I also believe in negative energy and just energy in general. I think what your saying makes sense.

Ah, someone after my own heart! Thank you so much for that! I know it is very new age beliefs but it suddenly all just made sense to me. I imagine energy to be a line. Like from 0 to 100. 0 is negative whereas 100 is positive. Or Black is 0 and white is 100. Or low dense vibration is the devil and high fast vibration is God.

So I really shy away from anything health wise. I wonder if it isn't health anxiety I have sometimes. I keep getting letters asking me to go to check up on different things from my health practice. That bible passage comes to mind every time, 'seek and ye shall find.' So I don't want to keep seeking because I don't want to find' so to speak!

Even my sufferings that I have suffered in this life then made perfect sense. Maybe, just maybe, if that energy is ongoing and eternal then I have gotten my karma. So be it huh! So maybe the negative energy I've got I've deserved. It has made me a better person. I no longer look for revenge and leave it to the universe. I watch what energy I am sending out now and yes, life is a lot better for sending out good thoughts instead of anger.

You are right though about germs spreading. People just don't think. It really winds me up when people cough and sneeze and don't cover themselves up. Especially when I have to go on public transport. It should be against the law! lol

Have you seen the new YouTube thread in the General chat section? I'm going to post some subliminal's and Theta wave videos. They always help me relax and I just have them on in the background.