Everyday is torture

[Rana]

I just don’t know what to do anymore o can’t take anymore. I’m really lost and I really don’t know how to handle everything anymore. I turned 35 two weeks ago I haven’t felt alive since 2004 maybe even years before that. I wake up and I’m tortured constantly by terrifying thoughts and ocd making me doubt anything from the guy I like anything to ruin me. Its to the point I sleep all day avoid dealing with it. I’ve tired many therapists over the years no one could help. I had feelings for a guy more than any other guy but it’s pointless he don’t like me he likes someone else and why bother since at my age I’m told no guy is gonna want me. I have nothing to look forward to everyday is just stomach aches and stress or too much for me to handle and I feel sad. I wonder what I ever did to deserve the life I live. I know people are gonna think I’m feeling sorry for myself I’m not this has been going on a long time and I’m not able to deal eith it anymore o have no motivation nothing. Anyone has any advice I like to hear it

 

[MakUSA]

You seam like a wonderful person, you should give yourself some benefits. You are 35 yo, you are young, you have the whole life an front of you. Try to talk to someone closer for how you feel, that always helps me, share your experince in forums like this, there are plenty of people that feel like you, this forum helped me going through a hard time and I am very glad I found it.

Go out, travel, explore, even by yourself, I did several trips by myself, the ones in Portugal and Asia made me realized that there is something there worth living, it changed me. Even if you go somewhere near for a walk or a hike, find your happy place.

Try photography, now, its my favorite hobby, its amazing and gives me something to enjoy.

I really hope you start feeling better very soon, if you need someone to talk I am here as the rest of the people here on this forum, don't be a stranger.

 

[MATD]

It is time to approach your anxiety from a different angle. OCD is just another way anxiety manifests itself. I recommend this book “ It’s Only Anxiety” by Carl James on Amazon. It teaches us a method of anxiety acceptance rather than fighting it, which is futile. Also try this website “anxietycentre.com”. Loaded with info and treatment method. There is a sub fee, monthly or yearly, well worth the money. Yearly is around $50. I feel for you, I really do. OCD is part of my anxiety issues, I have GAD which involves several manifestations. Both of these resources are what I attribute to my own entry into recovery.

 

[Rana]

Thank you