Emotional Problems

[XmasCarol52]

I think ever since I was a little girl I have had emotional problems,I was always picked on whenever I went to school.I didn't know how to stick up for myself and now I am a little bit better at it.However I am very insecure and sensitive I become very emotional and I get my feelings hurt so easily.I do not know why I am like this but I am,I suppose that is why people tend to walk all over me .Even my own family does. If someone upsets me I just usually just sit back and don't say a word.I am always afraid of hurting someone else's feelings even though they hurt mine.. There are times when I actually cried because someone hurt me or my feelings but i never let that person know it.I mean why do I have such a hard time telling someone that they hurt me? I just cannot let it out. I am sure emotional problems are part of my mental illness and anxieties.However today I was paid a nice compliment my mailman told me I was beautiful on the outside and inside that did make me feel good,see we get along just fine because he also experiences anxieties,panic depression etc,I am beginning to notice that more and more people who suffer with anxieties also have depression.Some pix i hope they can bring a smile here,I want to make people laugh and give them hope...

 

[Concernedgal]

I believe that anxiety and depression do go hand in hand and i've also noticed how most people who hAve the issues we have are good hearted. In our lives we give and give and give and we watch the people in our live s take and take and take. And they take until there is nothing left ... and in the end. . We feel empty and hollow in the inside. It's just seems to be a vicious cycle. When is it our turn to get ? Since when did it become a problem to be a good person? If your the taker then it seems that you have an abundance of happiness. Life just isn't fair sometimes.

 

[XmasCarol52]

You got that right I also find that people with a mental illness seem to be the kindest people around>I don't know maybe that is because we know how it is to get hurt and we do not want that for other people,I would rather give then take. Isn't that the way life should be anyway??There just isn't enough love in this world,I wish there was more but NO. I feel like people tolerate me because I have this illness..

 

[Danes]

I have always believed that the story you tell about your life is the basis of your life, and that is going to be the sum of your experience on this earth. Reading through your original post, I noticed that you seem to have a very strong belief that people take advantage of you. While that may very well be true, the way for you to help yourself out of that situation starting right now is to begin to focus on what it is you do want to experience rather than what you don't want in your life. I hope this helps...

 

[janemariesayed]

It is true that some people can change their lives for the better by thinking more positively. But when you are depressed you get wrapped up in it. It is like being trapped in a net with no chance of release. It takes a tremendous amount of strength just to complete normal daily tasks because the mind is not right. Some people, however hard they try, they just can't seem to get better. Take agoraphobia for example and panic attacks. We actually feel nauseous and have physical symptoms, this leads to depression.

There are many things that can cause depression. Anxiety is one of them. Each one of us is different. I am the same as you, Carol. I get upset when people hurt my feelings but don't have the courage to tell them. Lately, I figure that it isn't worth telling them anyway. Let them wallow in their selfishness and sin. If that is the vibration that they are sending out, then it should come back to them threefold, either in this life or the next.

 

[XmasCarol52]

you know I would never say or do anything to hurt someone so why must they hurt me?I guess they have to act like a child.Some people just dont care who they hurt.Sometimes I am crying on the inside so they cannot see me.Other times I think they enjoy hurting me or putting me down.

 

[janemariesayed]

you know I would never say or do anything to hurt someone so why must they hurt me?I guess they have to act like a child.Some people just dont care who they hurt.Sometimes I am crying on the inside so they cannot see me.Other times I think they enjoy hurting me or putting me down.

People are selfish Carol. At least some people are selfish. They just don't care or give a thought to anyone else but themseves. My family is like that. Their cutting remarks hurt my feelings and I would never speak to them that way. Purely out of respect for the fact that they are family. I don't get it. I just don't understand how someone can be so wicked and nasty.

Don't listen to them Carol. You are a lovely person. Don't let them get to you. I say that, but it is hard isn't it? When you love your family with a natural God given love it is hard to understand why God didn't give them that natural feeling as well. I suppose then, that we are blessed.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Thank you for such nice words you are a very nice person yourself.You got that right it sure is hard not to let it get to me (us) .Sometimes I want to say something but i am afraid they may say something like oh poor Carol she cannot take it. My mom thinks i over react she should talk.I certainly cann ot talk to her about anything because she is so judgemental she questions everything i do and treats me like a baby for instance if i buy something to bake or cook she will tell me I have to cook it,can you believe this woman telling me i have to warm up my food,I am 64 not two. She will come out and asks me if I cook it?I will tell her no just to be a smart ass.Even my son said she still thinks I am 2,which I am not.I am a woman she should treat me with respect.So should my kids. I love my kids and grand kids so much sometimes I often wonder if they do not come to see me because of my mental illness. That is just not fair when they see my mom every single sunday i live ten minutes away from them and my mom is 20-30 minutes away why does she get all the visits and she swears to which is not good for my grandchildren.I get absolutely nothing not even the time of day.It bothers me when i see the kids around here going to visit there parents I have one neighbor is so nice her kids visit her every single day,David her son told me if i ever needed anything to let his mom know but i do my shopping at Jet ,try it if u can,they sell everything food,drinks,furniture,toys whatever.They are expensive but the price goes down the more you spend.