Dsdna

[Giarose25]

So to back track a little bit, originally what brought me to the rheumatologist was a borderline Ana test(lowest of the low) my neurologist reassured this is seen in healthy patients often but for reassurance I could see a rheumatologist for my own peace at mind, which of coarse I did. They gave me thirteen blood tests including retesting they Ana. Results came back all negative including the ANA test, but now I have a borderline positive DSDNA negative is 0-5
Indeterminate 5-9
Positive 10
I got a 7 which he said is borderline and I had very mild inflammation and he things incomplete mild connective tissue disorder could explain this and to just check up every six months which of coarse scared me into tears because I feel like I’m not out of the woods. I don’t know what I am expecting people to say but I am so scared now. I understand I should be happy everything came back negative except that one but then I remember my googling and possibly being in beginning stages of a disease. I am not ok right now, sorry if I sound dramatic I am just nervous.

 

[triceps]

Hi Giarose25. Health anxiety makes it so difficult to accept good news. The doctor asking you to come back in six months shows they are not concerned that you have any disease of any consequence. Try to enjoy the good news of the Ana test, remembering all of the unnecessary angst that you went through from the prior borderline test result. You're in good shape physically so put your energies towards getting to the same shape mentally.

 

[matisworried]

i second what triceps said.

if your doctor had serious concerns, he would not wait six months to see you again. it is very likely protocol to follow up with you in that time frame based off your labs, which were only slightly elevated and not in the positive category.

 

[Giarose25]

I know I keep trying to tell myself that everything else can’t back negative and he said it’s likely due to some form of mild connective tissue disorder. I guess I just got overwhelmed reading that because ideally you just want it to say negative all around.

 

[Giarose25]

i second what triceps said.

if your doctor had serious concerns, he would not wait six months to see you again. it is very likely protocol to follow up with you in that time frame based off your labs, which were only slightly elevated and not in the positive category.

It also hurts like a sharp pain when I breath in mostly on the left side of my upper back and my arms are a little sore and I’m like great this really does sound like I am developing lupus. I’m honestly just so scared

 

[matisworried]

It also hurts like a sharp pain when I breath in mostly on the left side of my upper back and my arms are a little sore and I’m like great this really does sound like I am developing lupus. I’m honestly just so scared

no, it doesn't.

ask yourself what the odds are that you, a person with health anxiety, are actually experiencing symptoms of lupus vs. soreness stemming from an injury, overuse or something dumb like sleeping in an awkward position.

 

[Giarose25]

no, it doesn't.

ask yourself what the odds are that you, a person with health anxiety, are actually experiencing symptoms of lupus vs. soreness stemming from an injury, overuse or something dumb like sleeping in an awkward position.

I started talking with my therapist about maybe thinking all of this doubt and hard belief that I’m ok is being overly exposed to death so young? One point in elementary school it was a family member every year for three years(old age) but so young it hit me pretty hard. Then my mom almost died twice from what they said was almost a freak accident she had a rare form of deep vein thrombosis after having my sister and nearly bled to death in front of us. My cousin was diagnosed with colon cancer in her 20s she’s in remission now thank god! I guess I’m a little scarred and so focused on that fear of it can happen to you. Does that make sense? I do try rationalize and think other then those nothing so far runs in my family health wise too bad, well mental illness. I started working out and I can’t wait for my semester to start back again so I can really be focused on so much other things, I am really trying not to let this all get to me(my horrible fear of bad luck I guess).

 

[Giarose25]

no, it doesn't.

ask yourself what the odds are that you, a person with health anxiety, are actually experiencing symptoms of lupus vs. soreness stemming from an injury, overuse or something dumb like sleeping in an awkward position.

I have one more question, I am really sorry but after almost three whole months of no googling I messed up horrible and put myself into a severe panic over this MS thing. Because this back pain happened last month and caused a tightening feeling around my rib from time to time I remembered what I read about the MS hug, and it feeling like tightness around the ribs and now I’m terrified again. I made the biggest mistake googling and now I feel so scared and terrified at the fact that they didn’t check my spine though she convinced me in her words 110 percent no ms, but I didn’t have this back pain or tightness then

no, it doesn't.

ask yourself what the odds are that you, a person with health anxiety, are actually experiencing symptoms of lupus vs. soreness stemming from an injury, overuse or something dumb like sleeping in an awkward position.

The back pain came around the same dates last month and now this month

 

[matisworried]

I have one more question, I am really sorry but after almost three whole months of no googling I messed up horrible and put myself into a severe panic over this MS thing. Because this back pain happened last month and caused a tightening feeling around my rib from time to time I remembered what I read about the MS hug, and it feeling like tightness around the ribs and now I’m terrified again. I made the biggest mistake googling and now I feel so scared and terrified at the fact that they didn’t check my spine though she convinced me in her words 110 percent no ms, but I didn’t have this back pain or tightness then

The back pain came around the same dates last month and now this month

there are no need for apologies. you're a human being and you suffer from a really awful mental health condition. all you can do is try your best not to slip up again.

nothing you describe sounds like MS to me and it doesn't to your doctor(s) either. your brain is taking normal aches and pains and attaching them to these fears you have. i do sympathize. it's impossible to forget what you've read which is why it's so important to stay off of google now... you don't need to add to that.

HA can frequently be traced back to traumatic events earlier in life, especially if those events involve death or serious illness so that totally makes sense. i think it's great you're hashing this out with your therapist. it might be tough right now, but it will help address the problems you're having now.