Don't know what to do anymore. I'm terrified. Anxiety 24/7.
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I just stopped cause I think there is something wrong with my heart lol hoping if I start doing all the right things now that it’s not to late lol
Hi Aaronbm. Boy, that alot of hard stuff to quit, particularly the chewing if you were doing it regularly. Congrats on that self-control and discipline. My toughest time is each morning no matter what time I get up and the day generally (if I don't have a panic attack) gets better from there.
Butters, you're an inspiration to all of us. Truly, I mean that from the bottom of my heart.
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Kinda freaked myself into I just smoked a cig a minute ago well a few puffs and threw it out but yeah
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happy to hear about the pop and you looked into it
when you think zero, u think zero everything ways to scam us i guess. i havent been on here in awhile...alot of stuff happening but ill be back. good luck to you and i hope you keep feeling better always thinking about you all!Hurt&Hopeful
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No kidding - that's a LOT to take on at once. I'm pretty sure anyone going through that would feel a lot of anxiety, so you're doing GREAT @Aaronbm2009 .
Rough two days. I feel I've suffered a major setback. I was doing fine, taking no more then three milligrams of Valium a day. Sometimes I wound go two days without one. But yesterday the panic hit and it hit hard. I've kind of been in this haze of panic. I woke up today with major panic, decided to get my car washed, then attempted to Uber for a bit, then dropped my son off for his trip to Arizona. I did all of this with major anxiety present but it wasn't fun. Right now I'm laying in bed just thinking negative thoughts.
Love you guys and gals.
Love you guys and gals.
Just a thought Butters. Whatever your prescription is for the Valium, you might want to stick to it on both your good days and bad days. Not taking them for even a couple days could cause withdrawal symptoms (an anxiety crisis) and then upping your dose to try to deal with it gets you headed back to the benzo abuse situation you recently crawled out of.
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Hey @Butters - good to hear from you! It sounds like you've made so much progress in general. Hate that you had a bad couple of days. Sometimes it's 2 steps forward, 1 step back with this illness, so hang in there. Just remember that a couple of months ago, you were barely functioning - now you're working, taking your son places...MAJOR victories there. So if today all you can do is get through the day and hope for a better tomorrow, that's ok. We're with you!
Sometimes it's 2 steps forward, 1 step back with this illness, so hang in there. Just remember that a couple of months ago, you were barely functioning - now you're working, taking your son places...MAJOR victories there. So if today all you can do is get through the day and hope for a better tomorrow, that's ok. We're with you!Thanks so much Hurt and Hopeful. I'm trying. I went out Ubering yesterday but could only make it for three and a half hours and that was using Valium. Which by the way is no where close to as strong as xanax. Which is good in a sense.
I just hate waking up with it and having to take a Valium. It reminds me of just how I was before I was committed. I don't understud, I was doing so good and now I'm back to square one.
I just hate waking up with it and having to take a Valium. It reminds me of just how I was before I was committed. I don't understud, I was doing so good and now I'm back to square one.
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Nah, you're not back to square one at ALL. You sound completely different than you did when this all started - you have a much better perspective on it, and you're getting through it. Instead of saying "could only make it for three and half hours," just think - you woke up with severe anxiety, and still made it out to work at least a half day. That's pretty awesome!
I'm really sorry that you're dealing with this - it truly sucks. But hang in there and remember that it got better before, and it will again. The less you fear it, the less control it will have over you. And we got your back!
I take Zoloft and it has worked so much for me but I still have days where I think it’s not working anymore and I send myself into a panic. I don’t think anxiety every fully goes away but I ha r talked to people who said theirs has. I think we have to learn how to just deal with it so it’s not bother us all the time. I am not to that point yet but medication is working for me now.
Butters here. Checking in. Been doing pretty well lately. Haven't been relying on the Valium to get through the day. Been Ubering everyday for a minimum of four hours a day. Going to try mindfulness therapy this week.
Don't get me wrong the anxiety and mood swings are there they have just been manageable.
Love you guys.
Don't get me wrong the anxiety and mood swings are there they have just been manageable.
Love you guys.
So glad you are doing better. I am so happy for you. And your working . Let us know how the mindfulness therapy goes.